my twisted universe of shit....

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God i feel so fucking twisted right now, it almost seems like every time i accomplish something i take two steps back or somethings bad happens, and it may just be this week, but it's getting to me.

First, on monday i found out that my dad is on the verge of hating me. I tried to tell him 2 months ago and he replied that if i said that to anyone else in his household (divorced parents), he'd personally rip my head off. now he knows that i've been going out with my bf and he doesn't know for how long, and when we're not in front of other people it's almost like he hates me for being gay, he doesn't talk to me, and refuses to let me talk to him.

second, i dunno if i'm taking this wrong, maybe my boss was really that tired or maybe it's just that confused right now, but it almost seemed like my boss was hitting on me tonight, but i think it was just me being tired and confused.

along with that my bf's dad despises my being entirely and says i'm ruining his life along with his mom who says if i show my face to anyone outside our small niche of friends as his boyfriend, then i'll have singlehandedly ruined his life, because my bf is going to become and eagle scout soon and, to qoute, "they don't take kindly to gays."

and here's the kicker that's putting me on the edge of insanity, in amiss of all this, i get to go to my dads house tomorrow after having a "business talk" with my boss, which is confirmed about business, which means it may be a, your fired, business talk from my only decent job, after going to my recently deceased friends funeral, and when i get to my dads house, i'm going to get the kingly treatment of "So how was the funeral?????" as my dad does to the people he dispises...........needless to say, i'm about fucked emotionally right now........:sad:
 
ha. that's probably the only good i can pull out of the situation. go for that misguided-heart.

parents are usually hard to get along with in general. is there a reason your still at home, or do you already have your own place? because if not, i'd really consider getting out to keep your sanity.
 
star crossed love is sad.

Classically your options are to commit suicide together (bad idea, didn't work out well for Romeo and Juilette); run from bad guys and fall off a cliff together, or try to work it out. None of these hold much hope, but I think you should relax, first, talk about it, and then choose to live your life by your standards and not your families. Unless you are under 18, in which case you should be in school and not dating anyone, anyways.
 
Because you should be focused on doing well in school and in the typing class you so desperately need, as opposed to worrying about the opinions of people who will have no real impact in your life?
 
You're young, obviously. Your dad probably thinks this is another craaaazzzzyyyy teenager shenanigan, and is only looking out for your best interest. I hear it a lot; someone comes out of the closet to their parents, and their parents either a) refuse or b) get oober piz'd.

But it's you, right? He can't get mad at you for that no more than he can get mad at you for having brown hair. So you have a choice to trudge on and bear the weight of the temporary discomfort between you and your father, right?
 
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