When we have sex, all he does is thrust so hard and so fast, and he's very large and I'm extremely small it hurts so bad. But I want him to enjoy himself. I actually went to the gyno today and my vagina was "cracked", meaning the bottom of my vagina was red and bleeding and swollen with cuts after we had sex last night.
And he *always* wants me to give him a b.j., which I don't like doing because I'm not good at it and it's so impersonal. He likes b.j.'s more than he likes having sex with me and I HATE this.
Plus it feels *really* awkward (to the point where I don't even enjoy myself) when I'm completely naked because I hate my small breasts.
I want to be the girl that loves giving b.j.'s. I want to be the girl with the huge tata's that loves her body. I want to be the girl that can take all of what my guy gives me and enjoy it. But I'm not any of that, and it seems I just can't please him.
What can I do? I really care about him and I *need* him to enjoy sex with me, but between my incapability to give a b.j., my self-consciousness, and the pain when he goes too hard and deep, he can't enjoy it, and of course I can't either.
PLEASE help! What can I do?