So I've lived a pretty fairy tale nightmare of a life and won't bother with details. But someone befriended me on facebook and said they want to get together sometime soon to chill...go to some rave or some shit. Well I haven't chilled with anyone from high school since my psychotic break and the events leading up to it...and through therapy I've learned to forget the past but knowing the first thing that's going to be said is "so what's been going on since high school?"
I've tonight relived all of it and it's scary and I've been having semi flashbacks where it's like a "daydream" you know how your awake but not where you are, your mind is totally somewhere else...about what's happened and I can't seem to calm down or get any of the events out of my mind. I've tried focusing on other stuff but it just happens and I feel a sick/scared feeling that won't go away no matter what. It's really fucking with my head...I haven't actually thought about that stuff in months. I feel like i did the first time I went to therapy about this.
I've decided to not even bring it up or to lie to the person I'm gunna hang out with so I don't have to relive it again. What should I do? I've been up all night...please any suggestions on how to calm myself down and get in the mind set I was before I started reliving it would be very helpful. I do suffer from PTSD from two seperate events and I don't know how to stop this. Is this the begining of another psychotic break? My next therapist appointment it wednesday...what should I do until I can talk to a professional about this?
I've tonight relived all of it and it's scary and I've been having semi flashbacks where it's like a "daydream" you know how your awake but not where you are, your mind is totally somewhere else...about what's happened and I can't seem to calm down or get any of the events out of my mind. I've tried focusing on other stuff but it just happens and I feel a sick/scared feeling that won't go away no matter what. It's really fucking with my head...I haven't actually thought about that stuff in months. I feel like i did the first time I went to therapy about this.
I've decided to not even bring it up or to lie to the person I'm gunna hang out with so I don't have to relive it again. What should I do? I've been up all night...please any suggestions on how to calm myself down and get in the mind set I was before I started reliving it would be very helpful. I do suffer from PTSD from two seperate events and I don't know how to stop this. Is this the begining of another psychotic break? My next therapist appointment it wednesday...what should I do until I can talk to a professional about this?