Yeah, well, people don't generally joke about suicide like that, so call me whatever the f you want, but my guess is there's some reality in what you posted. You may not want to f'ing blow your brains out, but you sure as f aren't happy.
Two words:
yoga
Three more words:
Dr. Phil
Now stop joking about suicide because it's not f'ing funny and if your mom blew her head off while she was f'ing the mailman that wouldn't be very funny would it? I rest my case. Now go egg a house or something and make yourself feel better.