My Husband has Strangled me Just because Of what I cooked for dinner?

[nesianchick]

My husband is trying to get into the police but already has a full time job he goes training in the morning then goes to work then after work goes swimming, ohk on Friday night i made soup for dinner and he came back home and it was all sweet ( well that's what i thought ) he didn't give me any signs that he had a bad day at work. and then rugby came on and he sat down to watch it but my 5 yr old daughter kept on playing in front of the t.v and he was getting pissed off and shouting @ her to go away so i stepped in and said to him not to shout at her cause he need's to explain to her that it is his time to watch rugby and to find some to do....... He jumped off the couch and started screaming at me that i should not say a word when he is trying to teach our daughter and that the food that i was making for dinner sucks and that he deserves a proper food cause he works hard everyday and that he goes to training so that he can get into the police force and that the food that i make should be food that will give him energy after a long day at work and swimming ............ and he was just so angry he was telling me that he will pick something up to throw @ me and that he will give me a beating. At that moment i just didn't say a word cause i was afraid of what he might do....... so that whole bight we didn't talk to each other.......... OK then the next morning i woke up and i was doing the washing he walks in and tried to help me i told him that i can do it so he got angry and brought up what happened last night then i tried to explain then he turned around and grip on to my throat and squeezing until our youngest daughter walker over then he walked inside to check if my parents had seen anything but they were in the bedroom he said to me to don't ever speak to him in that manner again Whispering it to me so that my parents don't i was shaking and nodding my head yes and please leave me alone then he tried to punch me but i ducked and he miss so i yelled out my fathers name and he stopped and sat down on the steps acting like nothing happen and when my father showed he acted like nothing had happen and ask my father if he needed any help with the gardening with a big smile on his face

Please i need your help i feel like that i want to hang myself it's like i feel i am just not good enough at all at what ever i do i try my best as a mother and all so as a wife but it's still not good enough for him what am i to do?