goinginsane
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i've been with her for a little over 4 months. at first, the chemistry was insane, and i won't lie, we moved fast. we promised each other we wouldn't have sex for a while, so the furthest we got was me fingering her and her giving me a handjob. she left this summer on vacation, and we weren't alone for a little over a month. in that time i saw her, but briefly and with other people there.
she said when she came back from the vacations that she realized we had been moving too fast (which i knew as well), and that we should slow down. so we did. things were fine, but recently she told me that she doesn't like herself. now this surprised me, because she truly is a beautiful girl, and i question to this day how i got lucky enough to be with her. i think shes beautiful, and so do her friends. she always gets comments from random strangers too. but even more recently, like say the past two weeks, it's gotten weirder.
i told her i'd be here for her whenever she needed me, to deal with not liking herself. basically she has to build up a self image. she's had eating disorders in the past, but i helped her grow out of anorexia, and steer away from bulimia. she smiles and laughs and still kisses me, just not the same. it seems less passionate, and it's just a real quick hello or goodbye kiss - at least it's that way in school now. which it wasn't at the end of last year.
i know she still wants to be with me, because she was talking about homecoming today and how she's excited to go slow dance with me, because i just taught her to slow dance about a month ago. she's also been mentioning going out every friday with our friends (we have the same group of friends now). i love her friends, and i've asked them many times (even the guys) if they knew if anything was wrong.
i don't know what's going on, and it could just be nothing, but idk. she hasn't been alone with me in almost two weeks, also. tonight, he asked if it was okay if we didn't talk on the phone on nights she works (4-7pm). i said that's fine, because she's in a few ap classes, and is very busy.
i'm worried about losing her, even though i'm about 90% sure she's not planning on leaving. i want her to go on vacation with me this weekend, for labor day weekend, but she works saturday, and i'm pretty sure she can't find anyone to work for her.
anyways, i love her a lot, and i'd like to hear anything about what i can do or what might be wrong. or even if i'm just overreacting. i've heard her say that she loves me, but like 70% of the time it's me saying i love you first. thanks,
Nick.
she said when she came back from the vacations that she realized we had been moving too fast (which i knew as well), and that we should slow down. so we did. things were fine, but recently she told me that she doesn't like herself. now this surprised me, because she truly is a beautiful girl, and i question to this day how i got lucky enough to be with her. i think shes beautiful, and so do her friends. she always gets comments from random strangers too. but even more recently, like say the past two weeks, it's gotten weirder.
i told her i'd be here for her whenever she needed me, to deal with not liking herself. basically she has to build up a self image. she's had eating disorders in the past, but i helped her grow out of anorexia, and steer away from bulimia. she smiles and laughs and still kisses me, just not the same. it seems less passionate, and it's just a real quick hello or goodbye kiss - at least it's that way in school now. which it wasn't at the end of last year.
i know she still wants to be with me, because she was talking about homecoming today and how she's excited to go slow dance with me, because i just taught her to slow dance about a month ago. she's also been mentioning going out every friday with our friends (we have the same group of friends now). i love her friends, and i've asked them many times (even the guys) if they knew if anything was wrong.
i don't know what's going on, and it could just be nothing, but idk. she hasn't been alone with me in almost two weeks, also. tonight, he asked if it was okay if we didn't talk on the phone on nights she works (4-7pm). i said that's fine, because she's in a few ap classes, and is very busy.
i'm worried about losing her, even though i'm about 90% sure she's not planning on leaving. i want her to go on vacation with me this weekend, for labor day weekend, but she works saturday, and i'm pretty sure she can't find anyone to work for her.
anyways, i love her a lot, and i'd like to hear anything about what i can do or what might be wrong. or even if i'm just overreacting. i've heard her say that she loves me, but like 70% of the time it's me saying i love you first. thanks,
Nick.