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flyer99
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Happy New Year, my frienRAB, and I hope 2009 will be a great year for all of us. I apologize for the length of my story, but please bear with me and read it it all for a few minutes.
This is Friday. On Monday, I had to get the oil changed in my car. So I went to my usual garage and they took me right in and they ran the car up on the hoist and began changing the oil and filter. Now, I have had a bad back and also anxiety for years and years. My back is normally good, however on that day it wasn't. Midway through the oil change, I felt as though my back was going to give out. When it goes that way I can't move, just hobble around.
Well, then the anxiety stepped in. "What if" my back went out, "what if" I have a panic attack? My car was on the hoist. It wasn't going anywhere, so I was "trapped" (bad news for me). Then I started to get the thumping heart, the feeling of faintness and bewilderment, and I even get pale looking. Then, I started to continuously ask the garage when my car would be ready. They must have thought I was truly "crazy". After all, it was just an oil change.
I persevered until my car was ready. I paid them off with shaky hanRAB, pounding heart and all and headed home. It took me quite awhile at home to calm down and relax and then everything was back to "normal". My heart wasn't thumping or palpitating, and I was beginning to relax. I have always looked to my heart in panic situations as a lot of us do. That's the first thing I concentrate on. And the more I fixate on it the worse it gets.
Today is Friday, my back is a bit better (it never did "go out"). However, I just got cleaned out by my neigrabroador from a snowstorm and I went to the grocery store about 10 minutes away. Well, didn't the heart start thumping again. Of course, I was looking for that before I even got in the car to go to the store. I got my groceries, got home, relaxed and now, guess what, no thumping.
I try and exercise around the house by walking inside to "exercise tapes". So, I get in gear and start my exercises and here comes the thumping again. Of course, I am looking for this. Then the sweats start and the uneasy feeling that something is wrong. I stop exercising and I am fine.
This really created a situation a few months ago and I ended up at the emergency room. They kept me overnight and did all kinRAB of tests and xrays, including a stress test for my heart. Everything was absolutely fine. But yet I still worry about my heart and it is beginning to get to the point where I don't want to do anything as I know it will start thumping and palpitating again. And, of course, I know this is wrong. Aerobic exercise, for example, is the best thing I can do for my heart and overall health.
Thank you for reading this long note but I wanted to ask if any of you get fixated on your heart especially? How do you get on with your life? I am a terrible hypochondriac and the more I read on the internet the more things I have wrong with me and so I try and stay away from the medical sites as much as possible. I am going to ask my family doctor about this on January 20th (yet again). But I guess I just need some assurance. I live alone and have nobody to depend on or many people to talk with.
Thank you so very, very much!
Rob.
This is Friday. On Monday, I had to get the oil changed in my car. So I went to my usual garage and they took me right in and they ran the car up on the hoist and began changing the oil and filter. Now, I have had a bad back and also anxiety for years and years. My back is normally good, however on that day it wasn't. Midway through the oil change, I felt as though my back was going to give out. When it goes that way I can't move, just hobble around.
Well, then the anxiety stepped in. "What if" my back went out, "what if" I have a panic attack? My car was on the hoist. It wasn't going anywhere, so I was "trapped" (bad news for me). Then I started to get the thumping heart, the feeling of faintness and bewilderment, and I even get pale looking. Then, I started to continuously ask the garage when my car would be ready. They must have thought I was truly "crazy". After all, it was just an oil change.
I persevered until my car was ready. I paid them off with shaky hanRAB, pounding heart and all and headed home. It took me quite awhile at home to calm down and relax and then everything was back to "normal". My heart wasn't thumping or palpitating, and I was beginning to relax. I have always looked to my heart in panic situations as a lot of us do. That's the first thing I concentrate on. And the more I fixate on it the worse it gets.
Today is Friday, my back is a bit better (it never did "go out"). However, I just got cleaned out by my neigrabroador from a snowstorm and I went to the grocery store about 10 minutes away. Well, didn't the heart start thumping again. Of course, I was looking for that before I even got in the car to go to the store. I got my groceries, got home, relaxed and now, guess what, no thumping.
I try and exercise around the house by walking inside to "exercise tapes". So, I get in gear and start my exercises and here comes the thumping again. Of course, I am looking for this. Then the sweats start and the uneasy feeling that something is wrong. I stop exercising and I am fine.
This really created a situation a few months ago and I ended up at the emergency room. They kept me overnight and did all kinRAB of tests and xrays, including a stress test for my heart. Everything was absolutely fine. But yet I still worry about my heart and it is beginning to get to the point where I don't want to do anything as I know it will start thumping and palpitating again. And, of course, I know this is wrong. Aerobic exercise, for example, is the best thing I can do for my heart and overall health.
Thank you for reading this long note but I wanted to ask if any of you get fixated on your heart especially? How do you get on with your life? I am a terrible hypochondriac and the more I read on the internet the more things I have wrong with me and so I try and stay away from the medical sites as much as possible. I am going to ask my family doctor about this on January 20th (yet again). But I guess I just need some assurance. I live alone and have nobody to depend on or many people to talk with.
Thank you so very, very much!
Rob.
