My brother attempted suicide about 5months ago he keeps trying to like make it up to...

[kristen]

...me and get closer....? Sorry if this gets somewhat long might take a bit to explain =/. About 5months ago my big brother who is 17 tried to kill himself by slitting his wrists and well i walked in and screamed for my mommy and we called 911 still can't get the images of my big brother there lying there bleeding out =/. My big brother and i were closer then anything we always could like finish each others sentences and stuff. I never knew he was depressed or anything never saw it coming its just so idk. I love my big brother so much and he spent a long time in the hospital and then in a phych ward. He has been seeing a steady therapist as have i. Well lately he has been acting like idk its difficult to explain he keeps trying to get close to me and i keep pushing him away i hate that i do because i love him so much and i want to be there for him and everything. Just so scared of losing him again and i don't want to get close to him again because i am so scared of losing him again. He took me to dinner tonight and my mind just kept bring up the image of my brother lying there bleeding and i got up and left and went to the bathroom sobbing. I don't know what to do just so scared of getting close to him again. Advice?