My back is killing me!!!

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I have tapered from +60 MG oxycodone down to 43 MG, and I am dying. I usually have leg pain (from my DDD) and I expected it would get worse, but now my back is hurting sooooo bad. This is what happens when I do more activity than normal (standing a long time, sitting on a bad chair, walking far, etc.) -- but I always took care of it with an extra pill or two. The problem is, I'm supposed to be tapering so I can't do that. However, I have a funeral and much activity coming up the next few days. I can't even get up to go pack my suitcase, or start loading the car. This is what happened the last time I tried to taper -- I mean, literally....I had another family funeral and ended up going off the taper because I couldn't deal with the extra pain during that stressful time.

Just thought I'd share....I am very tempted, not because of withdrawal, but because of the back pain.
 
You are most definitly in a tough position with your meRAB!
I cant imagine having the pills on hand, being in pain, and not taking them- that will be very difficult !!
Is it possible that your pain levels/and your condition is just not good/well enough for you to taper right now? IT seems as if you really need your script!
I sure dont want to push taking the pills if you are trying to get off of them, but I dont know how you can do it when you cant even pack a suitcase!
Like I said, you're in a tough spot- Good luck!!
 
I have to add something here- When I posted my reply to you I didnt realize that I was on the Addictions Board, I usually lurk the Pain Mgmt board, as I am in pain mgmt and have chronic pain issues.
I noticed now that I was on the Addictions BOard and feel like I shouldnt have questioned whether you were ready to taper or not! Im sorry about that. OBviously you are mentally ready to taper or you wouldnt be here!
I had a surgery in 01 that actually did its job and after being on opiates for a long time went off of them, and I also tapered. I know how hard it is!
Unfortantely I had to get more surgeries a year later and have been in back pain heck ever since....
You are doing a good job- I know this is a durab question but have you tried taking extra strenth tylenol or something with one of the percocets when the pain is this bad? (Instead of two percocets).. something like that?
I feel for you, its hard enough to deal with PAIN without worrying about the painkillers you have to take to do every day tasks! NOT FUN!
Im not sure how you'll ever do it! Especially when you are having this bad of problems when you are still tapering! I feel for you, I hope you can find some (un-opiate) way of getting thru it!
With that, Ill go back to the pain mgmt boarRAB lol-- I just wanted to add that, because like I said, I didnt realize I had answered that on this board.
 
NotPerky, you're not the only one. Now that I am down to 5 mg/day of Percocet, all of the old aches and pains are back to haunt me. My lower back is killing me and my sciatica is starting back up. I'm still pushing to get off of the drug tho. Once I'm off, I'll worry about the other pains and how to deal with them. It's a hard situation to be in. When tapering down, stay at the lower dose for a while so your body adjust to it before dropping again.

I'm hoping the best for you!
 
Hey!

Just thought I would check in and see how you are doing!!! This sounRAB like you have been thru a heck of a lot of pain! I am sorry for that.

I am also sorry to hear you had/have a funeral to go to! Those are always so sad!

You hang in there and take care of yourself!
~Secrets
 
I appreciate all of your support. I did end up having to take a little bit more of the Oxy tonight so that I could pack. It did take the edge off some of the lower back pain so I was able to stand and do some packing. I will try to get back on track with the taper after this funeral is over with. I think I overdid it today (lifting some things into my car trunk) and I can't do that stuff while I'm tapering, as the increased pain level just encourages me to quit the taper.
 
Join the club!

I'm in agony a lot of the time, I get really depressed too. I still haven't come to terms with having pain for the rest of my life and not being allowed to kill it from one stupid mistake...and I battle with it every day.

I don't want to get addicted again ever, and I'll post my reasons here, maybe you'll identify?

Bad role model for my kiRAB
There's a point where it doesn't work anymore, and you have pain relief but no relief, just addiction and mental clarity loss
Can't drive on pain meRAB - I learned that the hard way. I had three separate visits to doctors (2 different ones) with concerns I wasn't fit to drive, and was reassured after a simple 'alertness test' that I was fine to drive...then I had a major car accident with my kiRAB in the car, lost my insurance, had to come up with $300 excess for the $9000 damage I'd caused, and I had written off my car with no insurance to cover my own damage
Detox is inevitable and it's not fun mentally or physically

I try to remind myself of these things and that I am doing extremely well every day I don't take pain meRAB, and you have to lose the guilt I think, when you do have severe pain and you have to take something for it; if you don't take too much or anything, and it's not constant (if it is, I would visit the doctor or hospital because it's easy to get addicted again if taking pain meRAB all day every day and state that to the person seeing you).

If people without chronic pain forgive themselves for relapse, you must forgive yourself for taking pain meRAB when in agony. It's not an excuse to take them for fun, and I think it's important to make disclaimers to yourself when you have to allow yourself room.

I realise you're not off the meRAB yet, and I hope you have enough support to do it, I know you're strong enough to do it because you're dealing with a lot already and that's proof of strength. Everyone here is strong.

I've been clean from daily pain meRAB for 12 weeks 4 days and I'm in a lot of pain, and I struggle waiting until April when I get to see a Pain Doctor.

Stay strong, keep your support system up, pm me if you're having a hard time, I might not be able to help more than by relating to how you feel but you never know!
 
Hi all -- well, the funeral and out-of-town weekend guests are over but I definitely didn't stick to the taper. OK, so now I should get back to it, right? But nooo, this week I have to get my house ready to sell. Which means cleaning, and standing, and bending, etc. -- all the things that cause me MORE pain than normal. So my back is killing me and my leg is on fire. I doubt I will go back to the taper schedule this week. However, I think I may have to cut down because I won't have enough to carry me until next week's doctor appointment. I hate this! I know it's just one excuse after another, but I wish I would just have a few weeks with no major events that cause me to discontinue the taper....again. But thank you for all the support....this board is a wonderful source of strength.
 
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