My abusive relationship still haunts me?

[Bubblie]

It's been since June 2009 that I left my ex boyfriend. Shortly after I surrounded myself with friends to deal with the break up, I even got into a new relationship. I did everything to cover up the abuse and humiliation I went through but lately it seems like everything is falling apart and all the memories are back. I can't sleep in my room, it reminds me of him forcing himself onto me countless of times for sex even if I refused. It may sound stupid but I still feel him choking me and pulling my hair on my bed. I taste the blood in my mouth while driving from him hitting me repeatedly at a red light. I look in the mirror and still see the two black eyes from last summer. I see my babies face everyday. The same baby he threatened me into aborting... The worst decision I've ever made! So on and so on... I feel so damaged, so worthless. My current boyfriend has noticed me being depressed and crying at night but I don't want to tell him, it's my issue not his. I need help, answers. I thought I was over the trauma, I want to live my life!!