Medication/Injury & Dr Appt. Update

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Hey FrienRAB,

SO..... Today was a BIG DEAL for me.. At least I think it was.....

This morning was my check up from my ER visit Sunday. In case anyone is just coming on.. I fell down our hard wood stairs and riddled myself with bruising, cracked rib, concussion, sprained knee, pulled muscles in my back and neck. So.. I go in.. I am SOOO NERVOUS! Because I know we are going to talk meRAB and I was PRAYING for the power to be strong...

So... Go in.. He checks me all out.. Confirms what I already knew.. I was a HOT MESS! hahhaaha. He recommened Physical Therapy which I told him I could not do because of insurance issue's so he printed off some excercises for me to do at home. Tells me I am going to be pretty sore for at least a month.... So then he says.. "I am going to prescribe you Vicodin for the pain and tell you to get lots of rest because you also have a cold." (woke up with a cold this morning) I said "Actually, I would rather try something non narcotic." He said "Ok, well then I will give you a rx for Ultram/Tramadol." I then said, "Actually, I think I will just stick with my Ib Profen because Ultram may technically not be a narcotic, it acts like one and has addictive qualities to it and that is something I don't feel comfortable with. I have 4 Vicodin's left at home for if it gets REALLY bad but other than that I will tough this out." He kind of was shocked when I said what I did about Tramadol and he said that he was going to do some research on it because I told him a couple of things he had not heard of. So.................... I DID IT. I can't believe it. I am so proud of myself.. There of course was more to the appointment but I tried to sum it up. I just feel good I had the strength and the self respect to say NO.... WOOHOOOO! And tonight... The last 4 are getting FLUSHED! I don't need them.. I can handle this pain... it's bad but I don't need the temptation around.

Just wanted to share!
XOXOXOXO
 
Secrets...y'know every day you make another strp towarRAB total victory. Flushing those vics? now i know that had to be hard but,girlfriend,you did it. YOU did it...all on your own. Can you see how far you've come? I sure hope so cause you deserve to revell in a bit of happiness.
Post before you log off for weekend so I know how you're getting on today.
Im off to drs but back online within the hour.
love to ya
CC xoxox
 
Thanks CC. I appreciate your kind worRAB! They mean a lot to me.

I have come a long way since I started this journey to recovery but I still have a long way to go.. I have a lifetime to fight to stay sober now. I am just taking one day at a time and dealing with it.

I am fighting my depression and anxiety still. My depression seems to have lifted a little in the last day or two but then... things at my house seem so gloomy. My husband is still in a funk and is so negative that it keeps me down. I just want him to feel better about life and try to find something positive about our lives.. I mean it's like at least we have eachother... He just really neeRAB this job to come thru and I think he is really nervous about it.... He still has not heard back from the guy so he is probably down about that. We have an entire weekend with no plans this weekend so hopefully we can have some fun together. I am going to try and bring some sunshine home with me today after work and see if that will be contagous!(sp?)

Other than that.. My body is still really sore but I will live. I am getting used to walking around like a senior citizen. I know I will heal.. It will just take time.

I am so glad you are back at the Dr. today! You will have to update us as soon as you can!!! I really would like to know if you are okay before I start my weekend because then I will be worrying the whole time!!!

Thanks for the reply and I hope your day brightens honey!
XOXOOX
 
Thank you CC and Milksnake!!!

CC, of course what you write always touches my heart! Thank you so much for your cheering!! Thank you for your support! I couldn't do it without all you guys!

Milksnake, THANK YOU! I may have won this battle but I know there will be more to come so I need to just keep my guard up and keep fighting.. I appreciate your support! It's nice you are so active on the board now! I love it.

Much love to you both!!!!!!
XOXOXOX
 
My doctor (surgeon) told me the same thing about Tramadol. That it is non-narcotic and non-addictive. I became addicted in 3 weeks! I called my PCP when I ran out because I was having terrible withdrawals and she told me that Tramadol was addictive and I should have tapered! She is a little younger than the surgeon, but why don't these doctors know this??!! I went through heck withdrawing and I was only on them for 5 weeks! AND only taking them as prescribed and never exceeding the recommended dose!

These are dangerous...all patients should be warned!

Secrets...fantastic!
 
I am soooo proud of you. Way to go. The best thing is that you KNEW he was going to prescribe you the hydro. That makes this a REAL victory. You won the internal battle. I bet you went back and forth for hours before --"should I take them, YES- I will only take a little bit" --or " I will get 30 and only use a few! Ya right --we know that is how it ALL starts. Then a little more and more and here we are again.

Way to go.

D
 
Hey me matey!! How was the weekend? Any knews of hubbys job? I have thought of you often the last few days and know you should be back online some point today..update us please! I will fill you in on me when I return from getting the laRAB from school:p Speak soon!
love CC xxxxxx
 
Great job secrets.......pat yourself on the back. This shows your strength. I believe you've won!
 
Hey Redneon82, thanks for your reply! I know.... Seriously.. I think these doctors are told by the pill makers one thing and don't do any research on their own... I am sure they get paid to push drugs.... It's so scary though because now I feel like I will have to watch my Dr. like a hawk any time he/she gives me something!

CC!!!!!!!! I MISSED YOU THIS WEEKEND!!! You were never far from my mind..... that is for sure! My weekend was pretty pathetic to be honest! So I will be honest. Friday night we didn't do anything but sit and watch tv and I went to bed early. Saturday I didn't get out of bed until 5pm!!! YES 5pm!! I couldn't believe it.... My husband said he tried to wake me up like 5 times but I kept telling him "give me another 5 minutes" So finally at 5 he brought me food to bed and that woke me up... (imagine that! hahaha) So I ate the breakfast in bed which was so sweet of him... So I got up and hung out for a couple of hours and back to bed I went! Woke up sunday morning to him begging me to get up at 1!!!! So I got up.. feeling like crap and depressed out of my mind... I ate something and then spent a little more time with him and back to bed I went... got up a few hours later to hit the loo and get something to drink, give the hubby a kiss and back to bed I went until this morning. I swear.... never in my life have I slept this much. That is SOOOO not like me. Usually I am the one begging him to wake up! I think it's because I am depressed! I barely got out of bed this morning but I knew I had to!

So... now I want to hear of your whole weekend!! How did it go???? The moments I was awake this weekend I wondered how you were holding up!!! I hope you had a good weekend! Post when you can!
XXOXOXX
 
Secrets....you LAZY BONES!!! Hey,if you can get away with sleeping like that for a weekend then,why not?!! It didnt do you any harm and with all your injuries of late I bet it was good for your body just to rest. But,if that is very unlikely you normally then I suspect the depression had a lot to do with it. Hope that things perk up for you soon,poppit.
OK...me. Well,it was sure better than last weekend thats for sure. Hubby was home all w/e so we had a lot of family time at the park and stuff. Weather has been sunny but chilly...us Brits,a bit of sun and we're all racing outside! Terry and I have sure talked a lot these last few days and I think we're pretty solid in this together. We've not used outside our quota,and saw our drug docter today. Crazy,sometimes I think they dont want you to get off gear cause he was really unimpressed that we'd being doing it by ourselves. Whats up with that? Anyhoo,things are rollong along nicely thanks. Terry certainly is struggling a lot more than me with the cravings so we've agreed not to drop the dosage again for a couple of weeks. I want to do this properly mate,and if I rush one of us then sure it'll end in disaster. Have been doing this crap for 15yrs now so taking me time to sort it out wont kill me. Im just so happy that its all moving the right way. My mood has lifted and have been pretty up the last 2 days. Dont want to tempt fate too much though,eh? I think Im leveling off on this quota of H and meth so I'll need to steel myself for the next set of WRAB in a while. You know mate,this journey is so full of ups and downs but we'll all get there in the end.:D
Mate,thinking bout your depression...are you taking anything prescribed for it or just trying to run the course on your own?You also didnt say if hubby has heard from his job interview?
Keeping you very much in mind....missed ya
love CC XOXOX
 
Hello Secrets,

Just want to say congrats! You are kicking addiction right in the butt!

I'm proud of you :)

Emsmom
 
Thank you D!

It felt like a battle won! I kind of felt like a bad A$$, I will admit it!! hahaha

Just wanted to share with my crew!

Thanks for the support! Hope you are feeling better by the minute!
XOXOX
 
WOW!! Ok,everyone now...do a football chant with me ; 'ya,secrets,ya secrets...wooo..wooo...wooooooo!!!'. Bleedin fantastic me mate. You are an inspiration to me,and I mean that. Pity your family dont know whats going on because I just know they would be so chuffed for you. I am chuffed for you...thrilled to bits in fact. Not easy to do when you have legitimate pain. Good going my girl. What more can I say? You're like a rolling stone,gathering more strength as you go along. Brilliant.
love as always for my mate,
CC xoxox
 
Great to here Secrets!
You are so strong right now refusing narcotics, still working I don't know how you do it!Try to get some rest in so you can heal up a quick as posible. Take extra vitamins lots of vit. C for your cold. Keep up the great job! and take care Carrara
 
I know... LAZY BONES is RIGHT! It was pathetic. I am on medication for depression and anxiety. It just doesn't seem to be helping.. I started on 20mg of celexa, and am now up to 60mg. So maybe after a couple of weeks it will help!!!

My husband did not hear anything Friday about the new job so now we just don't know.. It seems to be up in the air and has caused added stress! UGH.. I swear.. I think that is why I slept so much because I just didn't want to face reality.. I used to pop a couple of pills to deal with stress.. now... I have to deal with it on my own which I am finding to be difficult right now. I will be okay though. Maybe he will hear something back from them today or tomorrow? I don't know anymore.

It sounRAB like you had a nice weekend. I am so proud with how you have done!!! Down from 2 bags to a half each! That is great you guys!!! SO proud of you!!!! The sunshine does help make a person feel better but I won't lie.. If given the chance I would be at home in bed! Wanna make the trip over and give me a little kick in the rear? hahaha Anyways... If you have been doing this for 15 years than I agree... Slow and easy... There is no reason to push youself into failure... You guys know.... Pace yourself where you are at for a couple more weeks and then.... go down again.... That is horrible about your dr!!! I am sure they don't want you off the meth because maybe they make money off it? I know here in the states is pretty expensive.. I don't know how expensive.. that is just what I have heard.... So maybe that is why? Tell your hubby to just hold tight!! I know how bad the cravings are... I have them constantly!!! It's miserable but it will get better. There is a better way of life!!! He can do this!

Well CC.... I better get back to work. It's super busy here today!!!!! Monday's.... UGH! It's only noon here... 5.5 hours to go!!!
XOXOXOXOXOX
 
Hell....YEAH!!! Send us a couple planes tickets and Ill kick your arse all over the shop!!!hahaha.
Mate,from personal experience I know anti depressants can take 2 months to kick in before you feel any benefit. Hang on in there,poppit,and I know the sun will shine on you soon.
As for hubbys job,Ill keep him in me prayers and hope they dont keep you waiting for an answer - either way it goes.
Thanks for supporting my decision to slow down a bit...I know some can do the CT thing but Im not one of them. Its not practical with me laRAB and all,but even if I didnt have them I dont think I could hack that much hell. Its bad enough as it is with baby steps....cant even begin to imagine what it would be like if I jumped in head first?! Urgh!! I would be a sorry,dribbling mess.
Ok,sweets...better let you get back to the coporate world. Sucks,huh? Dont let anything get to you to much cause you're a great person and dont deserve the sadness. Cheer yourself up and think of me in odd legwarmers as Im about to have a dance (by request from my 4 yr old).Dont worry - I will move all breakables before I start the flinging!
loves ya
CC XOXOX
 
HAHAHHAA!!! The picture of that cracks me up!!! I love it. I am sure your 4 year old will too! What a Mom!

Yes, things will get better. This I know. I think I am just throwing myself a great big pity party because nothing seems to be going our way the last couple of years.. I will get over it. The sun will shine and there will be better days ahead. Thanks so much for your support and if I could afford those plane tickets they would be over nighted to you!! hahahhaa

Thank you for the prayers on hubby's job... We need them! He tried to call there today but was not able to reach anyone.... So... all prayers are accepted!

I hope you have a GREAT rest of your day!!!!!
XOXOXOXOX
 
Thank you guys for your worRAB of encouragement! You have no idea how much they help me stay strong.

I did end up flushing those vics last night and I still can't believe I did it! Never in a million years would I have done that 8 months ago.... SO I was proud of that victory!

I appreciate you guysso much! I will be getting lots of rest this weekend so don't worry about me! You are so sweet carrara for being concerned.

I hope you all are doing great!

Emsmom, I was just thinking about you this morning before work and funny enough you posted! I was wondering what you have been up to! Hope you are great!

Thanks again guys!
XOXOXOXOX
 
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