I've been a lurker on these forums for a while, I enjoy reading about other's problems if I have some of my own, it's quite like therapy. Now that I'm getting completely sick of life I decided to make an account!
First off, I'll inform you that I'm one of the people on forums that hates users that don't use proper grammar and punctuation, so don't expect to see illegible posts from me.
Well, I'm 15, and although it isn't old by most of your standards, I consider myself to be one of the more mature people for my age. Ever since the starting of high school I've been a lot more outgoing, I'm really into my music now, which ends up in me going to a lot of shows. They're fun, but now I'm probably hanging out with the wrong crowd.
So here's the problem. I'm WAY too nice to people. All my life, I do my best to please everyone, never come off as an asshole, but I just get nothing back. Everyone is a complete jerk to me, with the exception of a few really good friends. I have no way to take anger out, apart from mosh pits, which I can't go into for another 6 weeks because of an inflammed spleen (I had Mono a few weeks ago). Lately I've been getting really stressed and pissed off because I realize what I'm doing to myself and that I need to take more control of my life.
Everyone treats me like a pushover. If you knew me, you know I look nothing like someone you want to mess with, but I still come across as a pushover to a lot of people. I don't get physically pushed around, but emotionally it happens every day, non-stop.
I don't do any drugs, I don't smoke. I occasionally drink, but by occasionally I mean.. maybe once a year (by the way, don't try peach schnapps with orange juice, fucking awful tasting). This means that I'm always the person walking everyone home, and even though people respect me for it, I'm REALLY sick of always being the one having the least fun.
I'm also stuck between two people (my ex, and someone new). My ex and I broke up because a lot of things were happening in her life, but now that those things are over and schools almost out, were getting to like each other again. The problem is with this other girl, who I like more than my ex. She's only 14, but hangs out with really old guys (17, 18, 19) all the time. I tell her all the time that it's a bad idea but she does it anyways, and she knows that I'm right. She also knows that I like her. Right now she's dealing with a breakup with her asshole boyfriend, who slept with another girl from her school last weekend. I know it's not a really good idea to find out if she feels the same way about me, but I can't just sit here and let it bug me. She's really hard to read and I can't tell at all if she likes me or not. We hang out almost every day now, and I know I really like her.
Also, family life isn't too great. My parents aren't abusive, and they're half decently nice, but they do almost nothing for me and ask for everything their small minds can think of, and don't take interest in anything I do.
I'm basically stuck between everything and it's fucking up my life. I don't know what I'm asking for specifically, but suggestions on anything is really appreciated!
Thanks,
Tyler
First off, I'll inform you that I'm one of the people on forums that hates users that don't use proper grammar and punctuation, so don't expect to see illegible posts from me.
Well, I'm 15, and although it isn't old by most of your standards, I consider myself to be one of the more mature people for my age. Ever since the starting of high school I've been a lot more outgoing, I'm really into my music now, which ends up in me going to a lot of shows. They're fun, but now I'm probably hanging out with the wrong crowd.
So here's the problem. I'm WAY too nice to people. All my life, I do my best to please everyone, never come off as an asshole, but I just get nothing back. Everyone is a complete jerk to me, with the exception of a few really good friends. I have no way to take anger out, apart from mosh pits, which I can't go into for another 6 weeks because of an inflammed spleen (I had Mono a few weeks ago). Lately I've been getting really stressed and pissed off because I realize what I'm doing to myself and that I need to take more control of my life.
Everyone treats me like a pushover. If you knew me, you know I look nothing like someone you want to mess with, but I still come across as a pushover to a lot of people. I don't get physically pushed around, but emotionally it happens every day, non-stop.
I don't do any drugs, I don't smoke. I occasionally drink, but by occasionally I mean.. maybe once a year (by the way, don't try peach schnapps with orange juice, fucking awful tasting). This means that I'm always the person walking everyone home, and even though people respect me for it, I'm REALLY sick of always being the one having the least fun.
I'm also stuck between two people (my ex, and someone new). My ex and I broke up because a lot of things were happening in her life, but now that those things are over and schools almost out, were getting to like each other again. The problem is with this other girl, who I like more than my ex. She's only 14, but hangs out with really old guys (17, 18, 19) all the time. I tell her all the time that it's a bad idea but she does it anyways, and she knows that I'm right. She also knows that I like her. Right now she's dealing with a breakup with her asshole boyfriend, who slept with another girl from her school last weekend. I know it's not a really good idea to find out if she feels the same way about me, but I can't just sit here and let it bug me. She's really hard to read and I can't tell at all if she likes me or not. We hang out almost every day now, and I know I really like her.
Also, family life isn't too great. My parents aren't abusive, and they're half decently nice, but they do almost nothing for me and ask for everything their small minds can think of, and don't take interest in anything I do.
I'm basically stuck between everything and it's fucking up my life. I don't know what I'm asking for specifically, but suggestions on anything is really appreciated!
Thanks,
Tyler
