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frankdahunter
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Well i was working for a company,that i cant mention, that worked me day till night. had a new baby on the way, winter bills were piling up, and driving home one night it just blew up. it was snowing so hard i could barely see the road and then i felt like i was going to faint and leaned to the side like i was having a heart attack i was a smoker up until that day. I've quit drinking coffee, and didn't drink beer for a long time. i felt like i was going to die and felt like that for a very long time still to this day .
I went to the doctor had blood work done for diabeties and other things, anyways i finally went to another doctor for a second opinion and he checked me over and asked if i was stressed i said i don't know how to distinguish the difference, and long story short he prescribed diazepam started me off on 2ml three times a day then it worked for a week then stopped working then he up it to 5 ml and worked for a couple weeks then stopped working then i called in for a refill and got the 2 ml again and just is not working im tired all the time i cannot return to my usual activities i always have chest pain and tension, not hungry cant play with my kiRAB, hard for me to work, neck is always sore. side cramps like ive been running a marathon.
i have really crashed hard and really trying to cope with it in my life but cant seem to shake it. my wife cries when i tell her all my problems, with what im feeling, i cry for stupid reasons it could be happy or sad like right now i just started crying talking about it. i just don't know what to do i try to do something that takes my mind of of it. i have to have a project that requires a lot of thinking and it does help but when i slow down it all comes back the pain the hurt the death thoughts. the coulda shoulda woulda stuff and then i cant wait till the night time so i can just sleep and forget about it. But then what about the next day? All i could do is try and try, do i go back to the doctor and try a new med or do i just stay with the diazepam?
Happy day to you and think POSITIVE!!
I went to the doctor had blood work done for diabeties and other things, anyways i finally went to another doctor for a second opinion and he checked me over and asked if i was stressed i said i don't know how to distinguish the difference, and long story short he prescribed diazepam started me off on 2ml three times a day then it worked for a week then stopped working then he up it to 5 ml and worked for a couple weeks then stopped working then i called in for a refill and got the 2 ml again and just is not working im tired all the time i cannot return to my usual activities i always have chest pain and tension, not hungry cant play with my kiRAB, hard for me to work, neck is always sore. side cramps like ive been running a marathon.
i have really crashed hard and really trying to cope with it in my life but cant seem to shake it. my wife cries when i tell her all my problems, with what im feeling, i cry for stupid reasons it could be happy or sad like right now i just started crying talking about it. i just don't know what to do i try to do something that takes my mind of of it. i have to have a project that requires a lot of thinking and it does help but when i slow down it all comes back the pain the hurt the death thoughts. the coulda shoulda woulda stuff and then i cant wait till the night time so i can just sleep and forget about it. But then what about the next day? All i could do is try and try, do i go back to the doctor and try a new med or do i just stay with the diazepam?
Happy day to you and think POSITIVE!!