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PepeL
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Hi. New, and I think I'm finally accepting I have a disorder.
About me: Healthy generally. Getting Married. Male in his late 20s.
Why I think I have a problem:
I have always picked at my arms. I have some skin disease thats supper common that makes too much oil in hair folicles. I like to pop them like zits. It gives me satisfaction. I also pop zits on my face. I am constantly checking my skin especially on my arms. This has been going on since my mid 20s. I never thought anything of it.
Recently, I was told I'm losing my job. They are giving us good notice but still it will be gone by end of the year. I am also in school. My Fiancee's career life isn't the best and I help support her.
In May, I think I officially became a cybercondriac. I had a stomach pain and went to the doc who ordered blood tests. I looked up stomach pain and convinced myself it was probably Colon Cancer from reading online. I had stomach pain, headaches, dizzyness, didn't want to work. I decided screw the doc, I am going to a GI which I did who performed all tests on me. One night I broke down panicing, crying, and my fiancee had to take me to the ER where they told me I was ok. In the end, no cancer. I felt good for a few weeks after that.
Then, I decided to go to the dermatologist about my skin picking issues. He gave me medicine but also cut out 2 small moles that were questionable. I still await these results but my mind started realing about melanoma. Yes, colon cancer one month, skin cancer the next. He told me they were small even if they turn out bad but my mind was freaking out. Fear of Melanoma made me pick more at my body.
Now, as I type I have a feeling of tingling right between my shoulders. So I looked that up (everyone tells me to stop looking online) and now I am afraid I have MS. I looked up symptoms of MS and at any little discomfort in my hanRAB or feet I worry. I can admit, I have very few signs of MS other than the tingling in my back, which I know can jsut be bad posture. Still, at weird times, the room will start to spin, I will feel dizzy, and I will lose my apetite, even at great restaurants.
So, I'm starting to accept I probably do not have a terrible disease like cancer or MS, as the symptoms of those can all be attributed to something more common like anxiety. All the docs through the course of my fears have all suggested I may have anxiety or depression.
I want to stop it. Really I do. I do not want to worry. I am compulsively looking online at terrible diseases. I am compulsively picking at my skin. Should I go to my primary care (who is probably sick of me by now); should I seek a mental professional now? And if so a psychologist, or a psychiatrist? I realize in 2 months I have feared 2 cancers and one neurological disease; and I can see the life changing events. I do not want meRAB. I have always thought myself better than that. But is it time to let my pride go should someone prescribe? Does this sound like anxiety or depression?
Whats the best way I should start to address this? or is this just another condition I am afraid of having but don't like the rest? Weird.
About me: Healthy generally. Getting Married. Male in his late 20s.
Why I think I have a problem:
I have always picked at my arms. I have some skin disease thats supper common that makes too much oil in hair folicles. I like to pop them like zits. It gives me satisfaction. I also pop zits on my face. I am constantly checking my skin especially on my arms. This has been going on since my mid 20s. I never thought anything of it.
Recently, I was told I'm losing my job. They are giving us good notice but still it will be gone by end of the year. I am also in school. My Fiancee's career life isn't the best and I help support her.
In May, I think I officially became a cybercondriac. I had a stomach pain and went to the doc who ordered blood tests. I looked up stomach pain and convinced myself it was probably Colon Cancer from reading online. I had stomach pain, headaches, dizzyness, didn't want to work. I decided screw the doc, I am going to a GI which I did who performed all tests on me. One night I broke down panicing, crying, and my fiancee had to take me to the ER where they told me I was ok. In the end, no cancer. I felt good for a few weeks after that.
Then, I decided to go to the dermatologist about my skin picking issues. He gave me medicine but also cut out 2 small moles that were questionable. I still await these results but my mind started realing about melanoma. Yes, colon cancer one month, skin cancer the next. He told me they were small even if they turn out bad but my mind was freaking out. Fear of Melanoma made me pick more at my body.
Now, as I type I have a feeling of tingling right between my shoulders. So I looked that up (everyone tells me to stop looking online) and now I am afraid I have MS. I looked up symptoms of MS and at any little discomfort in my hanRAB or feet I worry. I can admit, I have very few signs of MS other than the tingling in my back, which I know can jsut be bad posture. Still, at weird times, the room will start to spin, I will feel dizzy, and I will lose my apetite, even at great restaurants.
So, I'm starting to accept I probably do not have a terrible disease like cancer or MS, as the symptoms of those can all be attributed to something more common like anxiety. All the docs through the course of my fears have all suggested I may have anxiety or depression.
I want to stop it. Really I do. I do not want to worry. I am compulsively looking online at terrible diseases. I am compulsively picking at my skin. Should I go to my primary care (who is probably sick of me by now); should I seek a mental professional now? And if so a psychologist, or a psychiatrist? I realize in 2 months I have feared 2 cancers and one neurological disease; and I can see the life changing events. I do not want meRAB. I have always thought myself better than that. But is it time to let my pride go should someone prescribe? Does this sound like anxiety or depression?
Whats the best way I should start to address this? or is this just another condition I am afraid of having but don't like the rest? Weird.