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supere30m3

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You can hitchike down here and sleep in our garage. I'd say you could stay n the house, but its really small. Purpose is over rated anyways.
 
Have you considered that maybe all you need is time? Rushing into things won't get you anywhere and a feeling of unaccomplishment( if that's even a word) will often cause you to rush recklessly into something you eventually will grow to hate. Don't worry about finding a purpose because in truth no one finds their purpose. Their purpose finds them. Just take each day as a single step towards the unknown. You spend 12+ hours a day on computer you say so why not try to use those 12+ hours wisely? Research things that intrest you. Research is often very boring to many but it pays off. You don't have to leave your home town to change the world. Even a butterfly has an impact. All that other rhetoric. The point is If you want something badly enough you'll get it. At least that is the lesson life taught me. Hope things get better. :thumbsup:
 
i know you said that you don't want to go to college, but just as an fyi, pretty much anyone can get into college, unless you didn't graduate from high school or don't have a GED. even if your grades were crap you can probably get into a junior college and with good grades transfer to a decent college.

^fag
 
I came very close to going down the same road. I think the fact that I escaped high school with a diploma and Unforgiven didn't is nothing more than a matter of chance and unfortunately he got the short end of the stick.

One of these days dude, I'm gonna drive up to your house and leave, and you're coming with me.
 
I know about the small town in the middle of nowhere Canada . Sounds like people are offering lots of opportunities take a chance and take someone up on it . If you live really far north then the days are so fuckin short it can drive you nuts . If your 21 you have so much time to do something . I didn't start getting any of my schooling finished till I was your age . Find something you like and then go do it . If its killing things and being a cog in the machine is what you like then I guess the military is an option but not a good one . If you have a few people who you can call real friends then you are lucky . Take people up on offers . Before your old and dried out .
 
I'm feeling with you. I waisted much of my so far short life doing nothing. I had the possibllity to get into university ( I don't know if that is what I truly want but at least my brain would be useful one way or the other ^^ ). But Lazyness, no perspective and lotsa fear broke it for me. So now I'm sitting here trying to get a job or learn one whilste my brain is trying to tell me fuck you I don't want to do either. I feel just so completly out of place, that it already hurts. And to top it all off, I keep asking myself what I'm doing this all for? having no answer to that isn't only frustrating it's also sad. But nonetheless I keep going. I might add that I had found my purpose and then lost it again. Now I'm building illusions to protect myself from madness :D
So don't talk yourself into anything because it is easy and hard to lie to yourself. But in the end you can only loose following that path ;)
Beeing a bit optimistic isn't gonna kill you though ^^
 
Just go out and do something. Even if its something you dont like. If you dont like it try something else. My uncle was in the same boat as you he didnt know what he wanted to do but he went out and found something he liked. He lived at home till he was 27 so you have plenty of time to figure it out. So just try something.
 
Come to NY. You can crash on my couch for a bit. Get the fuck out of your town for a while.

There are a shitload of Canadians here btw. It's odd and eerie.
 
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