I just lost my mom to a short but very hard battle with cancer. I am 22 years old and I feel so lost without her and I have breakdowns constantly and withdrawn from just about everything. She was my best friend, I called her over 5 times every single day on days I wasn't around her, and when she got diagnosed all we did was fight because I wanted her to have more hope (she's a realist). I'm looking for a good CHRISTIAN book on grieving. Or anything that someone could suggest by just knowing what I have said here. I just NEED to know she is in heaven and that it truly does exist (I am a believer, but I'm in so much pain/hurt right now I can't help but really wonder). Almost like I need some sort of reassurance. If anyone knows or anything or could suggest something I'd appreciate it.