Okay this may be long, so be prepared.
I'm 17 years old, my boyfriend is 22, i've never met him. I live in Canada and he lives in the U.S We started talking from xbox, i've known him for about a year now.. We talk 24 hours a day, literally.. I've talked to his whole family and vise versa. He is in the military, he is leaving for Iraq in June... & we both want to see each other obviously before he leaves. Some people may think i'm crazy but I honestly do love him, I know everything about him and he knows everything about me. I love the person he is, sometimes you can't help feelings whether there is miles between you or not. But what i'm getting at is that I want to see him so bad but i'm so insecure about my body and what I look like, and I think that's whats holding me back, and also i'm a virgin. He knows how I feel about myself and he constantly is reassuring me that i'm beautiful but my feelings don't change. I just feel like he has this image of me in his head and i'm scared he will be disappointed. I'm overweight, I know I have been trying to lose weight the healthy way but as I said before, i'm on a time line here. I tend to over think alot of things, that's probably one of my biggest faults.. but i'm just trying to smack myself in the face with reality once and a while lol! I mean realistically I would like nothing more then to be with him, but I've never met him, scared to meet him, and if I do i'll probably get to see him MAYBE once or twice before he is gone for a year and a haf. I'm just so confused, I really don't want to break things off with him AT ALL.. but it seems like i'm always trying to think of an excuse to. Anybody have any opinions on this.. feel free to be brutally honest with me, otherwise I never would have asked. Thanks guys
I'm 17 years old, my boyfriend is 22, i've never met him. I live in Canada and he lives in the U.S We started talking from xbox, i've known him for about a year now.. We talk 24 hours a day, literally.. I've talked to his whole family and vise versa. He is in the military, he is leaving for Iraq in June... & we both want to see each other obviously before he leaves. Some people may think i'm crazy but I honestly do love him, I know everything about him and he knows everything about me. I love the person he is, sometimes you can't help feelings whether there is miles between you or not. But what i'm getting at is that I want to see him so bad but i'm so insecure about my body and what I look like, and I think that's whats holding me back, and also i'm a virgin. He knows how I feel about myself and he constantly is reassuring me that i'm beautiful but my feelings don't change. I just feel like he has this image of me in his head and i'm scared he will be disappointed. I'm overweight, I know I have been trying to lose weight the healthy way but as I said before, i'm on a time line here. I tend to over think alot of things, that's probably one of my biggest faults.. but i'm just trying to smack myself in the face with reality once and a while lol! I mean realistically I would like nothing more then to be with him, but I've never met him, scared to meet him, and if I do i'll probably get to see him MAYBE once or twice before he is gone for a year and a haf. I'm just so confused, I really don't want to break things off with him AT ALL.. but it seems like i'm always trying to think of an excuse to. Anybody have any opinions on this.. feel free to be brutally honest with me, otherwise I never would have asked. Thanks guys