loneliness all alone

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laur7

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hmm..okay..So let's give it a try,
I can't sleep properly, I don't eat, I feel like the lonelinest (is that even a word?)
now when I have an own apartment..I did never think of it that I would be like this. I even miss my mom, and that just gives it away..

Why can't I sleep?
well, mostly because I'm small and afraid. I don't feel safe in this new apartment ..I can't fall asleep unless I have the tv on (sometimes a lamp too) or I have my bf here..

WHY won't you eat you stupid fuck!?
well..usually I have a headache when I come home, and I can't make anything
properly..or then I don't have any food or I have this weird thing when I'm hungry but just for a specific thing..and I hate that because everything else makes me feel ill..


I am getting 2kittens..but just for now it feels like shit, and I hate that I don't like it here..but it's all this mean circle eat-sleep-eat..I have to get it going I guess..

but Am I just not ready for living alone? Or has/had anyone else this problem when you moved out?
 
I felt the exact same way when I moved into my own apartment for the first time (at 22, after a 5 year live-in relationship). It really is a creepy feeling, being all alone. But give it some time, you will get used to it. It took me a few months but it got there.

However, i've been with my current wife/fiance/SO for 8 years and when she travels for work, I can't sleep. I take sleeping pills when she's gone or I'd go nuts.

It has nothing to do with being ready to live alone, it has to do with what you're used to. Familiarity is comfortable, even if you didn't really like it. The devil you know etc etc.

Besides, you'll always have us for e-company.
 
Stardust, getting an apartment on your own is a scary thing, and also living alone is too.
You will get over it soon enough, you will of course feel afraid of something being alone at night, but that's normal.

I'm sure the animals will help you and with your BF there, but you will get used to it soon enough, It's just a big experience for you right now.

But you gotta eat!
 
only a month, that's not long. Took me a long time to get used to being alone. Sometimes I still miss it, you know, when the missus is nagging me about something. "Do the dishes, take out the garbage, put me out, i'm on fire, i'm hot, blah blah blah"
 
I lived off of Top Ramen hehe. I didn't have any pots so made it in my coffee maker (worked surprisingly well). Then i got a microwave and discovered hundreds of ways to prepare it. And it's easy to eat when your stomach hurts.
 
I have this weird..I don't know what to call it..but I am hungry..but I feel ill when I think of food to eat..or when I want a specific dish, and everything else makes me feel ill..it is a pain in the ass..because sometimes I'm really hungry but I can't eat so much..
 
Have to eat. I get the same way because of my work (stupid ulcers hehe). But being diabetic I have to force myself to eat regularly. Sometimes just some lightly buttered toast or bread keeps me going. Nice and bland.
 
Two words: Take out!

My fridge is pitiful. My sister came over last week and said "I can tell you're a bachelorette".

Of course, when I lived with my girlfriend, we'd have all kinds of shit in the fridge. My sister would come over with a shopping bag.

Now I'm hopeless.

I hear you Stardust, it takes some getting used to. You'll be ok though.

P.S. if you miss your family, go visit them sometimes, it'll give you a quick fix. Then you'll be ready to go on your own again.

Also, that is your apartment. You decide who enters or not, you create the energy of your living space. Instead of resisting it or being afraid of it, work within it, own it.
 
It will get better I promise you. If watching or leaving the television on makes you feel better do it, thats what I did, sooner or later, you wont need to. But you have to take care of yourself, really you do, try to start eating properly, even if it is small meals, regularly. Start thinking about the good things about being on your own, try not to dwel on all the bad things. :)

As for food, okay I come hope from work, im shattered, dont want to spend an hour cooking, so what i try to do is have a large lunch, then when i get home, if im hungry i make a sandwich, or have some fruit. Just plan around you. If your up to it, cook on the weekend and make stuff to eat through the week, even if you have to freeze it...hey it may seem bad...but i do a long day :shrugs: Dont eat take out, its not good for you...and if you have to do it...only occasionally.

Take care.
 
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