azirontoticon
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Well, as you can probably tell from the topic, my life has had loads of twists and lots of shit has changed. I'm currently on summer holidays from college. I'm 19 and i'm in a class full of 17 year olds. Sadly, i made the decision to go to my school's further education centre, ended up only passing one class and that was with a D and leaving. All that made me wish i went to college straight away, i enjoyed college and actually work hard and happier i guess. But then there's the whole thing of how other's treat me. People think that because i say and like racist jokes, i'm a racist. To which i point out that the meaning of racism is the belief that the person's race is superior to others, but of course, they disagree with that. All this shit about people thinking im racist has made me paranoid which people may say i'm over re-acting but meh. It's also got something to do with the way my childhood went, being bullied by people older than me, usually because of a medical conditon which i don't want to disclose. Now i'm unemployed and won't get any funding for my last year of college. Just needed to get that shit off my chest, but i'm too afraid to explain this shit to my mother, because she'd worry and stuff.