Lex was tapered down to
zero from 20mg in 1.5
months.
Milnacipran was started 11
days ago> current dose
25mg x 2
4 days ago, for the first time
I experienced this disturbing
thought/vision of some very
gory type, and it sort of
petrified me. I didnt bother
to dwell on it.
Next night while writing into
my journal dealing with a
particularly difficult issue - I
experienced a vision of
standing near a church and
being attacked by a
bandaged mummy. scared I
was! But then it wasnt
abnormal.
What started subsequently
was reigniting of fears and
phobias from my childhood
which have long gotten over
in my life - fear of the dark,
scared there are monsters
hiding in the hallway...
definitely fears - NOT
delusions or hallucinations.
2 days on, just ANXITety,
which has anyways doubled
since I started in Milnacipran
Today evening for about an
hour, while on a drive
through a lovely terrain, we
stopped over for a while.... I
started to feel scared -
scared of looking at the
trees - the lights in the
distance - the bells from the
local church, the buzzing of
a far away radio,the rustling
of the leaves - innocent
printed designs on my
friend's tshirt looked like
they had some deep
ominous undertone - the
gates of the buildings,
everything seemed to scare
me - I was paralyzed in fear -
I thought I was going to turn
psychotic. All along there
were no hallucinations and
delusions....
And then I felt a massive
panic attack set in which I
miraculously avoided
somehow.
But the experience has made
me all most paralyzed. Now I
know the pdoc would have
to work through the details
of what has happened etc
etc...
I wonder if the lex
withdrawal has set in... or
the high NE from MIL is
causing this somehow -
anxiety has been bad - but
what I experienced today
was raw dread.
It seemed to wean off in a
while, but the after effects
have been a severe sense of
foreboding...
0.5 mg ativan seemed to
calm me, but the overriding
fear seems to have gotten
stuck now..
Any comments? Is this
anxiety or is it something
more ominous????
zero from 20mg in 1.5
months.
Milnacipran was started 11
days ago> current dose
25mg x 2
4 days ago, for the first time
I experienced this disturbing
thought/vision of some very
gory type, and it sort of
petrified me. I didnt bother
to dwell on it.
Next night while writing into
my journal dealing with a
particularly difficult issue - I
experienced a vision of
standing near a church and
being attacked by a
bandaged mummy. scared I
was! But then it wasnt
abnormal.
What started subsequently
was reigniting of fears and
phobias from my childhood
which have long gotten over
in my life - fear of the dark,
scared there are monsters
hiding in the hallway...
definitely fears - NOT
delusions or hallucinations.
2 days on, just ANXITety,
which has anyways doubled
since I started in Milnacipran
Today evening for about an
hour, while on a drive
through a lovely terrain, we
stopped over for a while.... I
started to feel scared -
scared of looking at the
trees - the lights in the
distance - the bells from the
local church, the buzzing of
a far away radio,the rustling
of the leaves - innocent
printed designs on my
friend's tshirt looked like
they had some deep
ominous undertone - the
gates of the buildings,
everything seemed to scare
me - I was paralyzed in fear -
I thought I was going to turn
psychotic. All along there
were no hallucinations and
delusions....
And then I felt a massive
panic attack set in which I
miraculously avoided
somehow.
But the experience has made
me all most paralyzed. Now I
know the pdoc would have
to work through the details
of what has happened etc
etc...
I wonder if the lex
withdrawal has set in... or
the high NE from MIL is
causing this somehow -
anxiety has been bad - but
what I experienced today
was raw dread.
It seemed to wean off in a
while, but the after effects
have been a severe sense of
foreboding...
0.5 mg ativan seemed to
calm me, but the overriding
fear seems to have gotten
stuck now..
Any comments? Is this
anxiety or is it something
more ominous????