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Hi everyone, I found this forum becaue I was bored in a tech class and just went to WTF.com to see what would happen and well...I'm here.

Anyway here's my story

I'm 16 and Male and I'm currently in Grade 10. I have a Twin Sister who's Severe Autistic, she can't talk, she can't understand basic speech and she's only functioning at a two year old level, she can't be left alone at all or she might hurt herself or someone else because she doesn't know any better, she's real protective about certain things and we can't do awhole lot because of her, my mom is 51 and she's at her limit mentally, she just can't handle the situation anymore, she's constantly getting hurt and abused by her and she takes everything out on me, she's also been fighting the government for since I was 8 because in the special ed class my sister was in they'd lock her up like an animal and hurt her and stuff, we went to human rights and even got a lawyer but no one seems to care at all no doctor or person in general wants to help us at all, I feel weird being controled by someone who doesn't even know the pain she's causing so many people (Not that I blame her, I love my sister and I'd never blame her for it, it's not her fault) My mom howlers at me, grounds me, does anything she can, on top of that at school no one seems to take me seriously, I try my best to fit in, I'm good at sports, I'm intellegent (I have above average reading skills) and I'm not bad looking (atleast I don't think so...) I'm 6'1, Green Eyes, Black Hair, although I do have abit of acne...but what teen doesn't? My teachers give me a hard time (even tho I do farely well) and my peers don't even achknowledge me...My Dad is a deadbeat...he ran out on us when we were 5 so he's out of the picture, my mom puts so much effort and time into my sister that there are days where she even forgets I exist, she'll go days at a time without even saying a word to me, I hate it so much, I can do thingsa with my life and I have potencial but no one at all achknowledges me at all, if I had anybody at all, just one person who cared about me and would feel sad if I was gone I'd be happy, I've tried to get a girlfriend before but when I tried I was always laughed at...I have good qualities, I'm a good listener and I'd do anything at all to make it work, I'm sensitive of people's feelings because of what I go through myself, I just need someone to listen to me, to try and understand even alittle of what I go through, it's really hard I go day to day just living my life, I don't hang out with anyone or talk to anyone anymore because no one cares, if I died tommorrow no one would care at all, it's really frustrating, I'd never kill myself because I'd feel that's giving up and if there's a chance...even a small one that someday someone will achknowledge me and care about me, then I'll keep living.

So basicly I'd just like to know what you guys think, It's ok if you want to insult me or anything, I'm used to flames by now insults have no effect on me, just say anythiong that comes to mind.
 
Kazezou,

If you're interested in getting some help for your sister, I'd do research on homes in your area that cater to autistics or others with mental disabilities. I'm not talking about an institution, it's more a group home. She'll love being there with others like her and she'll start being more independent, have a life outside of the house. There are lots of places you can look. I don't know where you are so I can't recommend anywhere.

Having an autistic child in the family is very difficult but there are blessings too, I'm sure you know that already.

As for you, get a therapist. It'll help. It's a lot to deal with, not only is she your sibling, but she's also your twin. I'm sure there's a lot going on in your head and not just involving your family; guilt, regret, shame, embarrassment, wanting acceptance, you name it. Look around for a therapist, if you can't afford one, there's a sliding scale, where they charge based on your income.

There's help out there.
 
Welcome.

Just some advice: make a post in the welcome wagon and use full stops now and then. Commas are overused these days. Re-read BklynCannonball's post.

Sad story. We've all got our own too. When you hit rock bottom, remember that things can only get better (so they say, I wouldnt know).
 
I'd try to get a therapist but my Mom is parinoid. She's been fighting the government for years and she doesn't trust them at all. Doctors, Lawyers she doesn't trust anybody and goes against everything I ask, believe me when I said I've tried to get help. That's why I've come here, I've literaly exhuasted all my options, All I can do is just tel people my story and ask for commentary, as for a home for my sister, Mom would never do it. We've tried but failed she's do desperate to hold on and won't admit things are too much for her. She is her daughter after all I don't blame her in a sense but I wish she'd try and understand. It's a very stressful situation and I just can't take it anymore.
 
Man, no wonder you and your sis are angry.

Anyway you can get an intervention going? It's really best. My ex-girlfriend's brother is autistic. He's in a home and he's doing well. He goes to programs, goes to the movies, on field trips, and he's learning to do things on his own.

As for you, go to the school counselor then, you're gonna have quite a tough time with your mom if she's bugging out like this.
 
Well just to make one thing clear my sister is so severe the doctors said that she is incapable of learning and there was little if no point in helping her. They said she might be the worst case in North America. I can't go to school councellors, it's the school my mom is fighting along with the government if I did they'd use that to get to mom in court and harass her. My mom being paranoid is one problem but add an unstable sister (She's 250 pounds she's stronger then I am) who could hurt you at any moment, the government and school system fighting you every chance they get and people at school being mean and you got alot of stress. You could name options for hours but I doubt there aren't any I haven't tried, this has been going on for 8 years after all.
 
I must say, your life does sound rough. But It could be alot worse. I haven't exactly had a great life, you might have me beat, but I can relate. One of my dads best friends had 2 kids with Musculodystrophy. I had to go to the funiral for the oldest, he was 16. All I could think about was the fact that the yongest was going to share the same fate as his brother.

Thigs could allways be worse. And some counsling can't hurt.

Don't do anything stupid. Wether your mom showes it or not, if you were gone, she would be in a worse position. She needs you around, wether she admits to it or not.
 
I'm just glad people are listening to me, thanks for the support everyone, and I'm sorry to hear about 2 kids that must have been hard on the family, and if I was allowed to get counciling I would.

Don't worry tho, thanks to my mother's rashness I've learned to think ahead and study situations, so I won't do anything stupid anytime soon.
 
Hi! I know it's a double post but I'd just like to say I've fixed my life and got out of this situation. Now I have a caring girlfriend and a pretty good life...a few minor problems but that's about it.

Thanks to all who cared.
 
it was only a matter of time. In the end, you could always get out of highschool and go to college, even if just a community college, pay your own way, have a job, and an apartment and make it on your own. It wouldnt be easy, but its a way out of something like that and i feel too few people would take that way out.
 
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