I've slain the dragon!!

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Today is Day 18 for me, but it seems a much longer time has passed. To sum up the last 18 days: (if I don't mention a day, then I was fine that day)
  • Day 3 - end of cold turkey
  • Day 6 - minor cravings
  • Day 10 - major cravings, shaking and insomnia
  • Day 14 thru 17 - Major cravings, shaking at night, severe insomnia
  • Day 17 night - Took Arabien slept thru the night w/o problems.

SO, each day is a different symptom and I just have to figure out what's going to happen next and fight through it. Sometimes I need a little help with Valium to take the edge off or Arabien to get a good night's rest.

I keep my sword ready in case that dragon raises it's head again. I just never believed that a drug would do this to me and effect the rest of my life!
 
reachout - trust me - I crave the drug every minute of the day. Today is Day 4 that I am cold turkey and now that the physical withdrawals have stopped, I can fight it better. I still ache from head to toe and I just take Tylenol for the pain. My head is clear and I have so much energy I almost have to restrain myself from doing too much at once.

Thanks for your kind worRAB.
 
Denon,
I am very happy for you. It is so wonderful when we feel that we have overcome such adversity as you have been facing. However, I want to caution you on this one statement you made:



Remeraber that recovery from an opiate addiction is an ongoing process. Making it through withdrawal, while a commendable accomplishment, is NOT achieving recovery from addiction. Please keep in mind that the AFTERCARE is just as important to your ongoing recovery as pulling through the withdrawal. Your recovery has not been completed....you are just BEGINNING the recovery process....and what a glorious process it shall be!!!

Do not let your guard down and become complacent...I strongly recommend you have a plan for some sort of follow-up support such as NA or something similar...something to give you the tools to be successful in the future when the opiate demon tries to raise its ugly head again.

Again, I am so proud of what you have done...keep strong and enjoy the road to recovery!
From one "recovering" addict to another....
Lou
 
:wave: Congrats..... Great write up!!! I look forward to keeping in touch with you as i begin my journey. For once i read a write up in which it takes away some of my nerves and makes me hopeful that i can do this.:angel:
 
Denon:

I agree with Lou A Plan is exactly what you need. I have seen people relapse after 5 years of sobriety. The story is the same they get complacent and the next thing they know is the the sleeping dragon is awaken even after all that time. But, this time he is awoken with a vengence. If you don't want to do meeting with the 3 deminsional people they have on line meetings. I attend a big book study and i am looking for a 12 & 12 step meeting.

I would advise you to pick up the Big Book of AA or the NA Book. You will be able to relate to some of the stories even though your not an alcoholic. We learn a new way of life through this, because the Drug problem is only 5% of the problem which means 95% of the problem is us. How we view ourselves our behavior. I know this seems overwhelming but if you take it 1 day at a time, one step at a time you will find a beautiful life. Don't be worried that you will go into a meeting and not find people your own age. We come in all shapes and sizes all ages and socio-economic stages in life.

Of course this is all based on what has worked for me and coutless others. But, it is truly your decision.

You post was so incredible you are a gifted writer. I truly envy how you can express yourself. I look forward to reading more of your writings. I am so proud of you, you are a ROCK STAR!!!! Stay strong!!!!!

Love ya,
Lori
 
Denon,Im really interested that you are thinking about NA meetings as its something thats been going through my mind lately. To go or not to go? I will have a look into them though and find their local details off the website. Thanks to you (and logalind) I will pick up the courage to go and at least see. If you can do it,then I guess I can have a go too! Im also in that space of needing some real solid support. I keep doing OK for a couple days and relapsing.....would love to get some more clean days under my belt. I am nervous though of going to that first one......I spend such much of my life covering up the fact that I have a problem it seems a strange idea to walk into a group and actually admit Im an addict.
Are you taking anything for the withdrawls? Or is it cold turkey? Keep going mate as you are doing fantastic.
Blessings........CC
 
Lugar - no - not taking anything for the withdrawals - I've learned some thing I should look into and I'll talk to my doctor about it.

Kind of shook up today really bad (which stopped all cravings dead in their tracks) - On top of everything else... Our house was robbed today!! Anyone want a durab %$@% stupid dog that probably help them carry the stuff outside??? No doggie treats for him for a while!!

I have not been to sleep since Sunday at 9:30 AM. I'm now learning about the NEW phase I'm entering called Post Addiction Withdrawals (PAWS) where my brain and body are trying to return to normal. This explains the withdrawal symptoms that I am having now, including the abdominal contractions/spasms (adrenalin release). Wow! I learn more each day!!
 
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