I've been having these weird thoughts lately?

[Ryan G]

like is any of this for real? or not? (i do love that kingdom hearts quote) but that aside, i just want to know what to do... i dated this girl for almost two years and a few months ago she broke up with me.. i had been suffering from depression and it became to much for her to put up with. i love her to death and i know that not being with me would make her happy so i just let it happen.. but not a day goes by i don't regret it. now she is dating someone else, recently started college and has a whole new life without me.. we haven't talked in months and i miss her so much. every time i think about her i cant help but cry. i just want to know what to do.... (and don't say see other people, i went through about three one week long relationships in the past two months and ended up feeling nothing over them) i just want her back in my life.... even as just a friend.. i don't know what to do with my life.