It's time for me to come out of hiding....

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Thanks D. Sometimes I feel so strong and sometimes i feel so weak and in those moments I try to focus on what I want the most out of life... Children with my husband. I think if I stay focused on that.... it will pull me thru.

The mind is a powerful thing..... I need to start using the right part of my brain and keep focused on what I want.

I don't know what I would do without this place.
 
Thanks for your reply.

I have nothing but this board and a few frienRAB I have made here. The thing about my husband is that even if I told him, I don't think he would think it was the end of the world. He knows the ups and downs about addiction and he is very forgiving. I am just too ashamed to admit it to him. i have a complex about disappointing people.

I know I need to seek outside help, I just am too afraid to do so. I am not okay with my addiction to be out and open. That may make me a coward but that is how I feel.

Thanks for your message.
 
That vision of your husband holding your baby should consume your thoughts and you will overcome anything. Nothing will stop you from making that vision come true.
 
Hello

Perhaps I am totally naive here, I have to admit I know very little about addiction except it scares me to death. I wish you all the best, you sound so strong to me and with all the support willingly given here I hope that will help you get yourself back to where you want to be.



Take care of yourself, I will keep you in my prayers.

JackiesLost
 
Folks, this thread is for supporting the journey of Secrets1983. Please discuss your own concerns about your own situations on your own threaRAB. Start a new thread if necessary.

musicman3, your post has been removed to your own thread.

littleblue, please start another thread to discuss your own history and situation.

I repeat: this thread is for supporting Secrets1983.

Thank you.
 
Have you ever looked at Rational Recovery? It's designed to be done on your own. It may give you some perspective.

Either way, you should take pregnancy off the table for now, don't you think?
 
Hi Secrets,
I too have lied and stolen many times from loved ones. Hating yourself will not help you. You can feel guilty as we all should in these situations. That shows you have a moral compass and you are a good person. I would never assume to tell you what to do, but ask yourself if telling him what you are going through and about the pills you took would make you feel better and enable to start again with a clean slate? I am in no position to give advice as I have done some very low things and have told some very shameful lies. reading some of your posts I have noted that you are a very strong person with a good sense of what is right and you have a loving generous heart. Just never forget that about yourself. Good luck getting yourself back on the wagon. I know you will.
Rowan
 
Good Afternoon my frienRAB!

I just wanted to tell you all that I hope you have GREAT weekenRAB and you are not far from my mind and you are most certainly in my heart.

I will hopefully have some time Monday to get caught up around here. That is if my work slows down a little. Next week just can't be as bad as this week.

I am still doing good. I have been really tired and fighting off a lot of cravings but I still feel really strong!!! Headache's have been a constant but it could be from all the tension at work too. I am happy though! I am not suffering from the severe depression like I did before! WOOHOOO

Hope you all are doing great!
HUGS :wave:
 
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