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Ive been needing to do this for a while I suppose, so here it fucking goes.

For a good three months now the bitch of a grandmother I live with will not stop giving me constant hell about what I truly am. Just because I like the color black, don't listen to that shitty bubble-gum-pop stuff everyone else listens to, and am not a Christian, doesn't mean I'm the Anti-Christ. I'm growing my hair out, she hates it, she tells me I look, TERRIBLE, and like trash, but I really could give a shit about that. She also treats me like I have no idea what living is, and that I'm just a confused fat kid thats on the internet all the time. As if my emotions aren't a complete and total fucking wreck as it is, from frequent relationship problems, getting insulted ALL THE TIME for no damned reason by people I haven't even said a word to in my entire fucking life, and dealing with her shit every day. I try to be nice to people to, and theres A LOT of people that piss me off. I'm not the jackass who talks shit behind peoples backs or anything either, yet people still treat me like shit at school, even the teachers, and even sometimes the few friends I seem to have. 3/4 of My Relationships have been online, ill admit to that, because all of the girls at my school (Not ALL of them, but you get the idea) Are just complete preppy douchefucks. And I can't date guys because my father and grandmother would probably send me to a military school if I told them I was bisexual. I'm just really sick of everything turning out the way it does, I try, I REALLY do. I try to be happy, I try to make others happy, but it never seems to work. Thats not even 1/20 of the shit I hate about my life, but people have worse ones, I know. And I'm sure you don't want to hear anymore.

Just felt like I needed to get that out.
 
It's probably difficult for someone from your grandmother's generation to understand someone from your generation. Hell, I don't understand kids these days.

Try to understand that your way of life is likely completely foreign to her and even though she may not express it very well, I'm sure she cares about you and is just worried.

Hang in there. :)
 
If you have this attitude towards her, then its no wonder she's like that.

In any case, I'm assuming you are living with her or she is living with you?

She's your grandmother. Respect her. Tell her, politely, that her remarks are hurting your feelings.

She probably had visions of a wonderful conformist prep grandson, and you don't fit into her molded idea. However, thats no reason to act like a snot ass and talk like an idiot.
 
Down for surprise butt secks?

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What is it with all these noobs lacking a basic comprehension of the English language?

Here's the deal. You are young. You are confused about who you want to be. That's normal. However, that does not give you the right to disrespect your Grandmother. You don't have to like her, but you do have to respect her.

If you are mean to her now, when she dies, you'll regret it.
 
1)You kind of sound like this guy
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2) WTF is wrong with "preppy douchefucks" chicks? Half the time they're hot and will let you sick in in there pooper.

3)You're most likely not bi you're just fucking lonely, Get The Fuck Off The Computer And Find A Hobby Like: Aircraft Spotting, Aeromodeling, Amateur Astronomy, Amateur Radio, Animals/pets/dogs, Arts, Astrology, Astronomy, Backgammon, Baseball, Basketball, Beach/Sun tanning, Beachcombing, Beadwork, Beatboxing, Becoming A Child Advocate, Bell Ringing, Belly Dancing, Bicycling, Bird watching, Birding, BMX, Blogging, BoardGames, Boating, Body Building, Bonsai Tree, Bowling, Brewing Beer, Bridge, Bringing Food To The Disabled, Building A House For Habitat For Humanity, Building Dollhouses, Butterfly Watching, Button Collecting, Calligraphy, Camping, Candle Making, Canoeing, Car Racing, Casino Gambling, Cave Diving, Chess, Church/church activities, Cigar Smoking, Cloud Watching, Coin Collecting, Collecting, Collecting Antiques, Collecting Artwork, Compose Music, Computer activities, Cooking, Crafts, Crochet, Crocheting, Cross-Stitch, Crossword Puzzles, Dancing, Diecast Collectibles, Digital Photography, Dolls, Dominoes, Drawing, Dumpster Diving, Eating out, Educational Courses, Electronics, Embroidery, Entertaining, Exercise (aerobics, weights), Fast cars, Fencing, Fishing, Football, Four Wheeling, Freshwater Aquariums, Frisbee Golf - Frolf, Games, Gardening, Garage Saleing, Genealogy, Geocaching,
Going to movies, Golf, Go Kart Racing, Grip Strength, Guitar, Handwriting Analysis, Hang gliding, Hiking, Home Brewing, Home Repair, Home Theater, Horse riding, Hot air ballooning, Hula Hooping, Hunting, Illusion, Jet Engines, Jewelry Making, Jigsaw Puzzles, Juggling, Keep A Journal, Kites, Kite Boarding, Knitting, Knotting, Learn to Play Poker, Learning A Foreign Language, Learning An Instrument, Learning To Pilot A Plane, Legos, Listening to music, Macram
 
Meh. At least you care enough about your life to be angry about it? Wait till you get to college. I assure you, you'll find at least one more person that's exactly like you ._.
 
lol at this.


no, but seriously. who gives a fuck what she thinks? if my grandma was bitching at me i'd be like "ok grandma whatever"
 
Either get used to this kind of shit and grow a thicker skin, or fucking change. No matter what in the end, all you have to be is true to yourself, and you'll do fine.
 
I'm not going to try and insult you or anything, because this clearly isn't B&T. :thumbsup:

I understand what you're going through. Living with people who aren't necessarily on the same wavelength as you are can be frustrating at times. But let's face it with a cliche: you can't teach an old dog new tricks. Grandma may not approve of your lifestyle, but it doesn't mean that it's because she doesn't love you. Basically this is her (granted, kind of mean) way to let you know that she just wants the best for you.

The best thing to do is to just know who you are as a person and to be absolutely comfortable with it. But, also be mindful that if you're underage, you still live by Grandma's rules, and basically you've got to do what she says, unfortunately.

Just know that everyone's been there in some way at some point in their lives. Try not to let people get to you, and don't be ashamed to be who you are.

Also, welcome to the community, and technically black isn't a color... :tongue:
 
What a smart and sweet girl she is even with all the shit she's going through - you're awesome just wanted to say that.

Anyway on to the OP. (And for those of us in school please go to your into to Psych books and reread the stages of development and realize this is classic adolescence, thanks.)

Even though you can't see or appreciate this now your grandmother will not be around forever. You can't share the whole of yourself with everyone all the time. The trick is finding the parts of you that you can share with her and enjoying them and finding a way to let her comments roll off you. I know that high school is a rough time but it is a short time over all in the grand scheme of your life.

The greatest lesson anyone can bestow upon you is - if you do not like something about your life change it. You have the power to do that, you are not helpless. It may not happen instantaneously but it will happen.

Keep your head up.
 
wow i cant believe i read that.....grow the fuck up and actually get a life there are people out there with way bigger problems than you.
 
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