It just keeps adding up.

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hdoraisamy

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A month or so ago, I made a thread in the Dearly Detested about my cousin Rachel, the heroine addict. Between now and then, she's been to rehab. Rachel didn't want to go (but what addict does?), but her probation officer told her they would revoke her probation if she didn't go. So, she goes for this twenty eight day program and she just got out yesterday. Today, she goes to check in with her probation officer where they then inform her that her probation has, in fact, been revoked because she tested dirty before she left for rehab.

So Rachel's baby has been staying with Rachel's mom, Laura. Laura couldn't watch Micah today because she had to go to a work shop (she's a teacher, and school starts tomorrow), therefore I got to spend my last day of summer watching my baby cousin. Which doesn't really bother me (it was only a few hours), but it just wasn't what I wanted to do.

The past year of my life has more or less been centered around Rachel, her being pregnant, her giving birth, her being in and out of trouble with the law. Our lives have been based around being able to jump when told to. I'm tired of it. No sixteen year old should have go through this. I'm just tired of it. And since school starts for me tomorrow, I know I won't have to worry about it as much... but it'll still be on my mind. I just want all of this to be done and over with.
 
Think on the bright side... you'll probably be meeting boucoup peeps who don't know or related to people with serious issues.... you'll meet people who have serious issues. (It may make your life seem better.) Your cousin certainly has problems. If you can learn from her mistakes, you can avoid the pain she's going through. I do wish you well with school and hope things turn out better for your cousin.
Oh shit, you mean school is starting back up tomorrow? That means the roads will be clogged with parents who can't drive for shit, bringing their children (who will grow up to be shitty drivers) to school. AAAAaaarrrggg. I'm getting roadrage already.
 
So if Rachel's mom Laura is starting work for the school tomorrow and you start the school year tomorrow, who will watch baby Micah? Answer, I will. :D

I'm sorry to hear about that. You're right, no 16 yr old should have to go through what you've been put through with your cousin. It isn't fair, but at least you'll get some down time when school starts up.
 
I'm sorry if I sound like a royal prick when I say this, but if she never commited the original crime (and wasn't repeatedly testing dirty... i.e., she gets one so she has to go to rehab, then she tests dirty again just before leaving for rehab), then her... and you... and the rest of your family wouldn't be being put through such a strain.

I know it's hard to hear that but just read my sig. and you'll understand who I am.
 
Well, she was a drug user, and she had been dodging probation because she knew she'd test dirty. I dunno. It's fucked up. The system has been way too lax with her, because she's been in and out of trouble for several years now. I'm just not the greatest at explaining it. :\
 
You're explaining it fine, but until such time as your cousin wants to help herself I don't know that there's really anything that you or your family can do.

It's tough chick, and I feel for you.
 
My cousin was able to prove the mother of his child to be an unfit mother and the child was removed and full custody was givin to the dad until the mother was able to successfully complete a rehab program. That was two years ago and she has yet to even go in. Perhaps this is something that needs to be done with your cousin. It would certainly be a wake up call.
 
I know exactly how exhausting this can be, and to be honest I am one of those that believe that a drug addict will seldom recover, that is based on my own experiences.

I endured 12 years of my ex's sister, she was addicted to Heroin. She was a lying cheating fucking slut. She had a son, and to be honest she didnt deserve him, ive never been so discusted in a person in my whole life. Fuck the excuses of "its the drugs", I hated that bitch.

She tried to kill herself three times, once when her son was in the house. There are few people in this world that I have real venom for but im sorry that bitch didnt suceed.

Even now as im writing this I have a knot of anger in my stomach for the way she treated her family, her son and her partner.

Thankfully her little boys Dad was a good man , I would hate to think where he would be now without her family or his dad. Probably fucked up and with social services.

I am no way wishing harm on your cousin , what im trying the say is it wears you down to the point of hate for that person, dont in any way feel guilty for feeling this way. You never brought this upon yourself and you are not alone in feeling the way you do. Albeit, you may not hate her, your pretty fucking sick of it.

You are a good person and that child is lucky to have you and your family. She is your main priority and when she gets older she will be a more adjusted person for it.
 
I remember you posting last time. Now is the time to think of yourself. At 16, there is only so much you can do. Damn, at any age there is only so much you can do.
As someone said earlier, your cousin won't succeed untill she wants to. The baby will be thankfull for the rest of your family when he is older. Just concerntrate of doing well in school and setting a good example for your second cousin.
 
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