NegativeWave
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Since I moved away from my hometown and got married I usually feel like I am a little man driving a big robot body around, like in one of those Japanimation cartoons.
I feel distanced from my surroundings. Almost nothing seems quite real to me. Both my work life and my home life are quite stressful. My job is unrewarding, demanding and low-paying. My stepsons are both on the autism spectrum and they drive me nuts with their violent, selfish and monotonously repetitious behavior. My wife is very unsympathetic and wants me to take the lion's share of responsibility for household chores. I hate the city I now live in and I have no friends and very little quality relaxation time. My overall quality of life has dropped drastically since I moved and got married.
What would the term be for experiencing your surroundings with a feeling of distance, like I do? Is it a symptom of developing mental illness or just a way of coping with unpleasant surroundings? I don't hear voices or hallucinate. I just feel like I am not really here most of the time.
Most of you will probably tell me to go back home and get out of this situation. I can't leave and go back home, however, because I have a young son of my own now who I could never leave alone in this environment. When I am interacting with my son is the only time I feel a sense of real immediacy and actually feel present in my surroundings.
I feel distanced from my surroundings. Almost nothing seems quite real to me. Both my work life and my home life are quite stressful. My job is unrewarding, demanding and low-paying. My stepsons are both on the autism spectrum and they drive me nuts with their violent, selfish and monotonously repetitious behavior. My wife is very unsympathetic and wants me to take the lion's share of responsibility for household chores. I hate the city I now live in and I have no friends and very little quality relaxation time. My overall quality of life has dropped drastically since I moved and got married.
What would the term be for experiencing your surroundings with a feeling of distance, like I do? Is it a symptom of developing mental illness or just a way of coping with unpleasant surroundings? I don't hear voices or hallucinate. I just feel like I am not really here most of the time.
Most of you will probably tell me to go back home and get out of this situation. I can't leave and go back home, however, because I have a young son of my own now who I could never leave alone in this environment. When I am interacting with my son is the only time I feel a sense of real immediacy and actually feel present in my surroundings.