I am fifteen and I have a really twisted mental disorder. I am obsessive about my mind and every thought I have. Its life threatening and I can't stop it. I have anger problems and I cut myself and I have panic attacks all the time. I feel like shit at the moment and I can't concentrate.
I told my parents and they don't understand anything. They think I'm looking for attention and that a social worker will just help me. They think its life stressors that make me sad, its not. Its my mind. How I think these days. I really feel like shit right now.
Today, while I was studying for exams I had a idea to print of random facts about depression and that and other mental disorders and get my parents to read it. I want them to understand, I can't help being sad all the time.
My mum yelled at me and said "you have everything you want, why can't you be happy" my dad gets aggressive and locks me in my room. He says I have no idea what stress is and feeling scared it. I do, I have become immune to it now. It makes me sad to hide my illness inside me. I get urges to tell people, but I don't.
I really want to tell one of my best friends, that I have known for seven years. But how do I? Is telling people about my thoughts, makes me feel better?
Is this a good idea?
I told my parents and they don't understand anything. They think I'm looking for attention and that a social worker will just help me. They think its life stressors that make me sad, its not. Its my mind. How I think these days. I really feel like shit right now.
Today, while I was studying for exams I had a idea to print of random facts about depression and that and other mental disorders and get my parents to read it. I want them to understand, I can't help being sad all the time.
My mum yelled at me and said "you have everything you want, why can't you be happy" my dad gets aggressive and locks me in my room. He says I have no idea what stress is and feeling scared it. I do, I have become immune to it now. It makes me sad to hide my illness inside me. I get urges to tell people, but I don't.
I really want to tell one of my best friends, that I have known for seven years. But how do I? Is telling people about my thoughts, makes me feel better?
Is this a good idea?