I'm sitting here on the laptop, a little hungover eating a toffee crisp.
And i can't help thinking life is so weird.
Between christmas and new year i came out to my family and close friends.
Now the dust has settled. and it's not hot topic and it's just excepted and i feel happy.
People know now though, like my school, my year and the year bellow and it's kind of like no big deal i don't broadcast it. It's like i've never said anything publicly about it. So i think people are like is she? kinda thing. Last night i was out at my friends 18th and a couple of people asked me. And this one girl was sooo nice she was like your really cool about it, i think it's cool, you remind me of skins lol and just was like really awsome.
The weird thing is though, girls are flirting with me now. At first i thought no, i'm imagining it. But i'm not, And i have never been hugged and smiled at and looked at from a far so much in all my life. And honest to god, i know i can't be right but i think a lot of girls like girls.
People say things and i think, you know holy shit, maybe everyone secretly finds women hot. I only realized i was, because i just don't fancy men. And i was like what's wrong with me. I Always fancied girls it just didn't click. haha that sounds stupid but it's hard to explain.
After a couple of drinks with a friend, we were talking about it and she was like yeah i thought i could be bi, i was like :O wow. so pretty much that means she's fancied a girl before.
Another friend asked me if i fancied someone and i said no, and she said "wow really if i were a lesbian i'd fancy her" hahaha. and on another occasion she said about someone on tv "i think she would be my type if i was a lesbian"
Another friend said she wouldn't mind being with a woman. but she is 100% only into guys for sure and simple.
And i just don't know about it. And how are you supposed to know who is and who's not.
Cause my gaydar hahaha is going off all the time. I don't think every ones gay obvs, it's just i think most people have liked a girl before even if they don't really realize it, for real.
Life is weird, and my little brain is working on over drive coming up with all this crap.
I have my suspicions about a beautiful and awsome girl i like. There is a few factors i've taken into consideration which makes me think it, but she probably realistically would not be. It's hard.
life. . .
And i can't help thinking life is so weird.
Between christmas and new year i came out to my family and close friends.
Now the dust has settled. and it's not hot topic and it's just excepted and i feel happy.
People know now though, like my school, my year and the year bellow and it's kind of like no big deal i don't broadcast it. It's like i've never said anything publicly about it. So i think people are like is she? kinda thing. Last night i was out at my friends 18th and a couple of people asked me. And this one girl was sooo nice she was like your really cool about it, i think it's cool, you remind me of skins lol and just was like really awsome.
The weird thing is though, girls are flirting with me now. At first i thought no, i'm imagining it. But i'm not, And i have never been hugged and smiled at and looked at from a far so much in all my life. And honest to god, i know i can't be right but i think a lot of girls like girls.
People say things and i think, you know holy shit, maybe everyone secretly finds women hot. I only realized i was, because i just don't fancy men. And i was like what's wrong with me. I Always fancied girls it just didn't click. haha that sounds stupid but it's hard to explain.
After a couple of drinks with a friend, we were talking about it and she was like yeah i thought i could be bi, i was like :O wow. so pretty much that means she's fancied a girl before.
Another friend asked me if i fancied someone and i said no, and she said "wow really if i were a lesbian i'd fancy her" hahaha. and on another occasion she said about someone on tv "i think she would be my type if i was a lesbian"
Another friend said she wouldn't mind being with a woman. but she is 100% only into guys for sure and simple.
And i just don't know about it. And how are you supposed to know who is and who's not.
Cause my gaydar hahaha is going off all the time. I don't think every ones gay obvs, it's just i think most people have liked a girl before even if they don't really realize it, for real.
Life is weird, and my little brain is working on over drive coming up with all this crap.
I have my suspicions about a beautiful and awsome girl i like. There is a few factors i've taken into consideration which makes me think it, but she probably realistically would not be. It's hard.
life. . .