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beckystarz45
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I am 18 years old. I have not had a boyfriend, but come close a couple times, like dating and talking to a couple guys quite a bit. I just never really liked them enough to call them my boyfriend, and have any sort of relationship longer than a few weeks. It is really rare that i REALLY like someone. The last time i can remember was like my freshman year of high school. I have never been one of those girls who needs a boyfriend, or has ever thought that i would change my plans to accomodate a boyfriend, like changing my college plans to stay with someone.
Anyways, I worked with someone over last fall that I looked forward to seeing at work and liked quite a bit, but never really thought anything of it, just as something kind of exciting, ya know? Like when you look forward to seeing someone cute hoping they will flirt with you? Okay so around december i stopped working there because i was really busy, and the plan was for me to continue in the summer. So since june I have been working with this guy. And I have a problem because I really like him. Like wayy too much. He is twenty one, and I am 18. We talk all day when we work together and he flirts with me and the other day when he walked in he smiled and said, "Aren't you glad i'm here now
? And he ran into me somewhere and came up behind me and said "Hey ginger!" (he calls me that b/c i have red hair), and talked to me for a little while.
Anyways, I think he may like me, too. He has mentioned it wont be as fun when i leave because he won't be able to try and make me blush. And the other day he told me that for like a solid five minutes i was walking around the place we work smiling, and he asked me why i was smiling, but i honestly had no idea! I didn't even know i was! But he knows i am moving away in about a month, and throughout the summer he hasn't asked for my number or suggested hanging out or anything outside of work, besides suggesting i come watch his tournament, which i did. I am moving to the midwest and he is telling me all the places i need to go, and saying how he wants to move back there someday b/c its where he grew up. I just like him so much. I have never felt this way before! Is it even possible to feel this way about someone i'm not even dating, or see much outside of work? I am just so scared because I am 18 and he is 21 and really looking for someone to spend the rest of his life with, and I am just now starting my life and figuring out what i want to do, and i'm scared that I won't find someone as perfect as he is when i move. I can't believe i feel this way. Is it silly? I feel so stupid for letting myself get so upset about it. I guess my question is, can you know a person is the one and only right person for you aren't even dating them? I feel like that is such a stupid question. Sorry. I can't find the right words, its the best i can do.
Anyways, I worked with someone over last fall that I looked forward to seeing at work and liked quite a bit, but never really thought anything of it, just as something kind of exciting, ya know? Like when you look forward to seeing someone cute hoping they will flirt with you? Okay so around december i stopped working there because i was really busy, and the plan was for me to continue in the summer. So since june I have been working with this guy. And I have a problem because I really like him. Like wayy too much. He is twenty one, and I am 18. We talk all day when we work together and he flirts with me and the other day when he walked in he smiled and said, "Aren't you glad i'm here now
? And he ran into me somewhere and came up behind me and said "Hey ginger!" (he calls me that b/c i have red hair), and talked to me for a little while.Anyways, I think he may like me, too. He has mentioned it wont be as fun when i leave because he won't be able to try and make me blush. And the other day he told me that for like a solid five minutes i was walking around the place we work smiling, and he asked me why i was smiling, but i honestly had no idea! I didn't even know i was! But he knows i am moving away in about a month, and throughout the summer he hasn't asked for my number or suggested hanging out or anything outside of work, besides suggesting i come watch his tournament, which i did. I am moving to the midwest and he is telling me all the places i need to go, and saying how he wants to move back there someday b/c its where he grew up. I just like him so much. I have never felt this way before! Is it even possible to feel this way about someone i'm not even dating, or see much outside of work? I am just so scared because I am 18 and he is 21 and really looking for someone to spend the rest of his life with, and I am just now starting my life and figuring out what i want to do, and i'm scared that I won't find someone as perfect as he is when i move. I can't believe i feel this way. Is it silly? I feel so stupid for letting myself get so upset about it. I guess my question is, can you know a person is the one and only right person for you aren't even dating them? I feel like that is such a stupid question. Sorry. I can't find the right words, its the best i can do.