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Millie
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I was with my good friend yesterday at his house, and I cuddled with him cause it was cold, and he asked me if he could kiss me and I said whatever, and he kissed my forehead and I looked up at him and he kissed me. And we were asking each other "what do you wanna do?" and I remember we made a promise to each other to always tell the truth and I said I wanted to have sex if it was okay with him, and he said sure. And we did, and now I feel awful cause I think I'm starting to have feelings for him, and I'm not sure if he does cause he always talks about this girl he loved, and he adds "well, her old self anyway, she changed" and I asked him what was kissing me like and he said that it was ok, and I asked him to compare it to the other girl's he's kissed and he said "well, of course her's* was better cause I loved her" So, now I'm thinking if it's possible not to fall in love with someone who have just casual sex with? I don't even know how he feels, we both've only had sex with one other person and we were just with those people cause of lust and hormones, but I know he's not heartless. I'm just afraid to fall for him because he's going abroad for college next year, I'll feel stupid cause I don't like admitting I'm in love, I don't like being in love cause it just closes up my mind and I can't think straight.