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cali03dreaming
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I am 19 so I guess I should have been ready for sex, but this guy and I were JUST still getting close. It was only a few weeks of dating and bam, we had sexual intercourse. I loved it, but I couldn't help but feel like I rushed into it. I have so much going on in my life, especially with stress from college and family health issues back home, that emotionally it hurt me a little. I think what hurt most is that I told him I wasn't ready and then he continued to pressure me into it, by saying things about it constantly and rubbing up on me. He said sex doesnt matter to him, but after he left I felt alone and used. I know he says he loves me, but right now I think I'm just going through so much that I am beating myself up for everything. I haven't eaten in 3 days, I can't sleep, and all I do is cry. Yet I know I'm falling in love and that scares me, but I also know how much I care about him. Why am I doing this to myself? I don't try not to eat, usually I stuff my face full of food and I'm usually extremely outgoing, funny, and happy. Maybe its my body's way of telling me to slow things down?
Any opinions.
Thanks =]
Any opinions.
Thanks =]