Myperfectdesire X
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Like should i feel bad, or does it make me a bad person. I understand that teenagers get mad at their moms sometimes and say thinks like "I hate you" but I'm being completely serious. She has borderline personality disorder, she was diagnosed while married to my father, but she completely denies it so I cannot get her help. She is literally destroying mine and my siblings lives. Every single one of us has had a suicide attempt or extremely suicidal thoughts. She makes every aspect of my like 100 times harder. I cannot live with my father because he does not have the money to support me even though I love him very much. Yesterday morning she was talking to me and i became so stressed out that I almost fainted. As she was yelling my vission started to fade to a purpley black color and my ears started to ring. I ran out of the room and locked my self in my bedroom. By then i could not see or hear anything, I lied on my bed until my senses came back to normal, I thought I was going to throw up. I layed on my bed until my nausea passed and my senses returned to normal. I cannot think of any reason for this episode aside from the stress of being around her. It is not normal or healthy that her presence makes me physically ill. Could someone please give me advice or their point of view on the situation. I would appreciate it, thank you.