Perhaps someone can add a little insight to this.
I was diagnosed with clinical depression at the age of 16; I was involuntarily committed to a psychiatric hospital after having a stint with the law. Since then I think I have gotten worse. The depression is episodic, but frequent. For example, one day I'll be fine, and the next I'll be to the point of suicide. It's not a gradual process. I hate the thought of having a psychological disorder because it seems so popularized now. I try to deal with things on my own, and I never tell anyone when I'm experiencing anything troubling.
I started smoking marijuana about three years ago, and it's helped my symptoms of depression.from time to time. When I'm not smoking, however, I'm extremely paranoid. Once I was fairly social, and now I barely leave my room. I have racing thoughts. I have panic attacks in class, and sometimes I'll get so lost in these racing thoughts that I'll lose large amounts of time. I hate doing anything now, and I'm suspicious and critical of people.
Am I just freaking out? Am I making something out of nothing? I need reassurance over this so I can better myself. What are your thoughts of what I should do?
I was diagnosed with clinical depression at the age of 16; I was involuntarily committed to a psychiatric hospital after having a stint with the law. Since then I think I have gotten worse. The depression is episodic, but frequent. For example, one day I'll be fine, and the next I'll be to the point of suicide. It's not a gradual process. I hate the thought of having a psychological disorder because it seems so popularized now. I try to deal with things on my own, and I never tell anyone when I'm experiencing anything troubling.
I started smoking marijuana about three years ago, and it's helped my symptoms of depression.from time to time. When I'm not smoking, however, I'm extremely paranoid. Once I was fairly social, and now I barely leave my room. I have racing thoughts. I have panic attacks in class, and sometimes I'll get so lost in these racing thoughts that I'll lose large amounts of time. I hate doing anything now, and I'm suspicious and critical of people.
Am I just freaking out? Am I making something out of nothing? I need reassurance over this so I can better myself. What are your thoughts of what I should do?