Amira Dawkins
New member
I'm in my mid twenties and am just so sick of men! I blossomed late as I was a ugly child (I'm serious) but at 15 I became so pretty and always received complements, I also had a real sexy body (which I didn't appreciate until now as I've gotten fat in the last year). An old friend used me & took my virginity (I was all who everyone wanted & couldn't get as I wasn't interested in guys), then my "first" boyfriend at 16 who was 22 used me for sex, I got pregnant and forced to terminate at 17 & I was scared for my family to find out. During the next 5-6 months I kind of went off the rails and slept with 4 guys (terrible I know) then I made a decision to stay away for good from men, I met my second & only real relationship at college, he fell in love before I did, we have a daughter and by 20 he was constantly cheating and by 22 left me for someone else, disowned our daughter and his entire family for her yet over the last three years since he left proclaims to love me, made a mistake, wants me back all the usual crap while lying he's single when in fact he's still with the chick! I went off men & then off the rails again, had fun with my mates going out which I didn't do before but had only one "relationship" which lasted a month, known him for years and only just discovered his love for me which everyone else knew but I don't know what happened he just dumped me! I feel I have no luck with men & I had been single by choice the last three years but now I get lonely etc but I'm terrified after what my daughters dad did to me, I think I purposely sabotaged the last relationship. A friend said I date guys lower than me (I'm very intelligent apart from when it comes to guys I guess lol) I feel there isn't a guy for me and I'll just spend my life alone, will have sperm insemination to have more children oh I've been single a year now & refuse to date or sleep with anyone! I've lost confidence also & gained a lot of weigh