Chibi_Porn
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Sorry for it being long. =/
I've written this question hundreds of times but always chicken out in the end. ._.
I'm currently 16, almost 17, and female. Basically ever since a very young age (4-6) I've known I liked girls. Of course I didn't really think of it too much seeing as I was so young and not really interested in relationships at the time. At age 13 I told my friend about it and he said I was bi-sexual, but I never felt emotionally attracted to males. Like I am sometimes attracted to guys physically, but not in the way that I'd want to be with them. So I finally came to terms with myself being lesbian this past summer. I'd always pushed the idea away because I found it weird. That once I came out I wouldn't be normal. I'm still not out of the closet, but I really am trying to work up the courage to tell my mom because I really need someone to talk to right now.
As I said I sometimes found a mans body attractive, but I feel like it's because I wished I looked like that. Even when I was young I would pray to God that when I grew up I wouldn't have boobs. I asked my mom multiple times that if I prayed enough it would come true. I also had my hair cut short and wore boyish clothing. However once I found out what it meant to be lesbian I went to being a 'girl' at the age 11. I hated it yes- but I felt like if I were different my parents would be disappointed.
I felt so much more comfortable when I was younger. I would go around like a guy, with my shirt off, short hair, and I would just be happy and more myself. Sadly I grew boobs, grew out my hair to please my parents, and wear more feminine clothing. My dad and mom always joked about how my brother is the daughter and I'mt he son, but he's gotten more... manly I guess. While I have gotten somewhat more girly... though not really. lol
Anyway I have questions and I hope they make sense.
1. What am I? I know I'm not a guy, but I don't feel right being a girl. I want more than anything to get rid of my boobs. I'm attracted to girls, not guys. I don't plan on getting a sex change, because of the emotional strains.
2. I want to bind my chest, but I don't want to order something off the internet because my dad would find out. I thought about doing it with the bandage wrap things, but is it healthy? I know it can't be too tight... and how am I supposed to go about doing it?
3. How do I talk to my mom about it. I'm not out to her about me being lesbian, but I really need support right now. My friends keep telling me I'm bisexual and that I shouldn't tell anyone, including my family. I feel depressed about it and I really just want to know how to identify myself. ._. They don't understand what I'm going through.
4. I really need advice and I'd love it if you could leave websites that deal with this. I've tried some, but I'm looking for more of a one-on-one thing. I think it would help loads. =/
THANKS! I love you all for at least trying to help. Sorry for wasting your time. x_x
I've written this question hundreds of times but always chicken out in the end. ._.
I'm currently 16, almost 17, and female. Basically ever since a very young age (4-6) I've known I liked girls. Of course I didn't really think of it too much seeing as I was so young and not really interested in relationships at the time. At age 13 I told my friend about it and he said I was bi-sexual, but I never felt emotionally attracted to males. Like I am sometimes attracted to guys physically, but not in the way that I'd want to be with them. So I finally came to terms with myself being lesbian this past summer. I'd always pushed the idea away because I found it weird. That once I came out I wouldn't be normal. I'm still not out of the closet, but I really am trying to work up the courage to tell my mom because I really need someone to talk to right now.
As I said I sometimes found a mans body attractive, but I feel like it's because I wished I looked like that. Even when I was young I would pray to God that when I grew up I wouldn't have boobs. I asked my mom multiple times that if I prayed enough it would come true. I also had my hair cut short and wore boyish clothing. However once I found out what it meant to be lesbian I went to being a 'girl' at the age 11. I hated it yes- but I felt like if I were different my parents would be disappointed.
I felt so much more comfortable when I was younger. I would go around like a guy, with my shirt off, short hair, and I would just be happy and more myself. Sadly I grew boobs, grew out my hair to please my parents, and wear more feminine clothing. My dad and mom always joked about how my brother is the daughter and I'mt he son, but he's gotten more... manly I guess. While I have gotten somewhat more girly... though not really. lol
Anyway I have questions and I hope they make sense.
1. What am I? I know I'm not a guy, but I don't feel right being a girl. I want more than anything to get rid of my boobs. I'm attracted to girls, not guys. I don't plan on getting a sex change, because of the emotional strains.
2. I want to bind my chest, but I don't want to order something off the internet because my dad would find out. I thought about doing it with the bandage wrap things, but is it healthy? I know it can't be too tight... and how am I supposed to go about doing it?
3. How do I talk to my mom about it. I'm not out to her about me being lesbian, but I really need support right now. My friends keep telling me I'm bisexual and that I shouldn't tell anyone, including my family. I feel depressed about it and I really just want to know how to identify myself. ._. They don't understand what I'm going through.
4. I really need advice and I'd love it if you could leave websites that deal with this. I've tried some, but I'm looking for more of a one-on-one thing. I think it would help loads. =/
THANKS! I love you all for at least trying to help. Sorry for wasting your time. x_x