...me?????????????????????????????????????????????????????? i do rowing if it matters. we get tested on the rowing machine and you have to push yourself. basically it's like running and the lower your time, the better.
i joined the team late this year and the coach was happy to have me on the team. my times are not as fast as last year but that's just because i'm out of shape. i have been killing it every workout and giving it my all. my coach noticed and started to cheer me on every workout lately. and he made me see that i am capable of more than i think when we get tested on the rowing machine.
then he stopped cheering me on as much but i was still doing well. but it kind of discouraged me and i felt like he wasn't noticing me anymore. like i killed it on a workout two days ago but the next day at practice the coaches did not say anything positive or negative to me. so i can't tell what they're thinking
today we were getting tested on the rowing machine and everyone was setting personal records. the coach was in SUCH a good mood because everyone was doing well. i was in the last group to go. everyone in my group set personal records except me. i did worse than on my first test. i did not improve.
after this, the coach was in a really bad mood. it had to be because of me. he didn't even say anything to me or ask me why i did so badly, so he must have been pissed. but right after my group tested, he basically yelled at a girl for no good reason. it had to be because he wanted me to do well!
i didn't even know he expected so much of me. and when he and my other coach were talking to us as a group, i was trying my best to hold back tears and i looked up and saw both of them look at me. but i feel like now is the turning point where they are just going to give up on me.
like i really feel like he hates me now. and i'm extremely upset and embarrassed of my performance. WHAT DO I DO?
i joined the team late this year and the coach was happy to have me on the team. my times are not as fast as last year but that's just because i'm out of shape. i have been killing it every workout and giving it my all. my coach noticed and started to cheer me on every workout lately. and he made me see that i am capable of more than i think when we get tested on the rowing machine.
then he stopped cheering me on as much but i was still doing well. but it kind of discouraged me and i felt like he wasn't noticing me anymore. like i killed it on a workout two days ago but the next day at practice the coaches did not say anything positive or negative to me. so i can't tell what they're thinking
today we were getting tested on the rowing machine and everyone was setting personal records. the coach was in SUCH a good mood because everyone was doing well. i was in the last group to go. everyone in my group set personal records except me. i did worse than on my first test. i did not improve.
after this, the coach was in a really bad mood. it had to be because of me. he didn't even say anything to me or ask me why i did so badly, so he must have been pissed. but right after my group tested, he basically yelled at a girl for no good reason. it had to be because he wanted me to do well!
i didn't even know he expected so much of me. and when he and my other coach were talking to us as a group, i was trying my best to hold back tears and i looked up and saw both of them look at me. but i feel like now is the turning point where they are just going to give up on me.
like i really feel like he hates me now. and i'm extremely upset and embarrassed of my performance. WHAT DO I DO?