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AndyScott
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Hi.
A little background on myself:
I'm a female, 23 years old. I didn't grow up in a loving household. I grew up with my father, my mother and my mother's sister. When I went out to places, I went with my mom and my aunt. My main emotional support growing up my was my mom and aunt; my dad was there for educational purposes and really, just to terrorize me emotionally and physically. Anyways, on to the question!
I've had crushes on boys since I can remember. Sure, in highschool, it would occasionally cross my mind what it would be like to kiss a female friend, but it was a thought that went away immediately after and never returned. In college, I drank a lot and messed around with guys because I couldn't get them sober or I couldn't deal, emotionally, while sober. My question around my sexuality began when I hugged a female friend and then another female friend on a separate occasion and felt an emotional stir. We were spooning and I was the bigger spoon. On other occasions, I wondered what it would be like to kiss these friends, but usually, it was when I had been drinking.
Anyways, I also watch straight and girl on girl porn.
And I have a boyfriend.
And I have Anxiety/OCD, Depression.
I've never taken the time to know any of the boys I made out with, and that's mostly because that's not what they wanted of me. Did I just not give myself enough time to develop feelings?
I'm actually really worried about being a lesbian ( I didn't have sexual thoughts towards my friends), but I just want to feel loved.
Help?
A little background on myself:
I'm a female, 23 years old. I didn't grow up in a loving household. I grew up with my father, my mother and my mother's sister. When I went out to places, I went with my mom and my aunt. My main emotional support growing up my was my mom and aunt; my dad was there for educational purposes and really, just to terrorize me emotionally and physically. Anyways, on to the question!
I've had crushes on boys since I can remember. Sure, in highschool, it would occasionally cross my mind what it would be like to kiss a female friend, but it was a thought that went away immediately after and never returned. In college, I drank a lot and messed around with guys because I couldn't get them sober or I couldn't deal, emotionally, while sober. My question around my sexuality began when I hugged a female friend and then another female friend on a separate occasion and felt an emotional stir. We were spooning and I was the bigger spoon. On other occasions, I wondered what it would be like to kiss these friends, but usually, it was when I had been drinking.
Anyways, I also watch straight and girl on girl porn.
And I have a boyfriend.
And I have Anxiety/OCD, Depression.
I've never taken the time to know any of the boys I made out with, and that's mostly because that's not what they wanted of me. Did I just not give myself enough time to develop feelings?
I'm actually really worried about being a lesbian ( I didn't have sexual thoughts towards my friends), but I just want to feel loved.
Help?