Kiss In the Snow
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Sorry if I sound really dumb or come off that way. I'm 15 and lately I've been thinking about my sexuality. A little backstory of me would be that I've never had a crush on a girl, I've only had one boyfriend and my first kiss has been my only one. I've never had a crush on a girl, but I can recall questioning my sexuality a few times before. Like, for example, I once thought about how I'm not really friends, or close friends, to text, a lot of guys, and I've always just had a lot of girl friends. I joke around with them about how if I were a guy, and my friends say they would never kiss a girl, and they act as if it's gross. To me, it's never been gross. Even before, and now, if a girl kissed me, I would mind. I would blush and act the same way if a guy were to kiss me, but I just wouldn't act the same as other straight females, or my friends. One, a girl friend of mine had kissed me on the cheek after I gave her my jacket, in front of other people, and I just looked at her as if to say "why?" She smiled and said that I didn't react like other girls she had tried to kiss on the cheek did. I didn't think much of it, or gossip about it behind her back.
But the other night and the thought of kissing a girl popped into my head. I've had fantasies about girls, but that's just fantasies, and I've never considered doing it to any girl. I've always day-dreamed about having a serious relationship with a guy, but now I've been wondering if I could have one with a girl, though no one in particular comes to mind.
I've heard this is just a phase that teenagers go through, but I've been a little weirded out by my feelings. So I guess what I'm asking is, am I too young to even be considering this? I'm honestly scared of even thinking that I'm Bisexual or Lesbian, because of what others say. I've been an avid gay supporter and have a few male gay friends, and I dislike it when people bash the LGBT community, but I'm scared because I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I wouldn't have my friends, and not my parents, though my mom has told me before that she'd accept me.
But the other night and the thought of kissing a girl popped into my head. I've had fantasies about girls, but that's just fantasies, and I've never considered doing it to any girl. I've always day-dreamed about having a serious relationship with a guy, but now I've been wondering if I could have one with a girl, though no one in particular comes to mind.
I've heard this is just a phase that teenagers go through, but I've been a little weirded out by my feelings. So I guess what I'm asking is, am I too young to even be considering this? I'm honestly scared of even thinking that I'm Bisexual or Lesbian, because of what others say. I've been an avid gay supporter and have a few male gay friends, and I dislike it when people bash the LGBT community, but I'm scared because I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I wouldn't have my friends, and not my parents, though my mom has told me before that she'd accept me.