twistedangle8
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Since December 2007 I have been plagued by constant stiffness and soreness in my neck, my lower back, my elbows, wrists, and knees.
Around the same time I developed a ringing sensation in both of my ears, though predominately my right, that has not went away but is at times lighter than others. It sounds almost like an audible electronic frequency, like the whir of an old radio or the tubes in an old tv warming up.
My sleep, public, and private lives has suffered from these symptoms greatly. I hurt too much to work in the health care profession anymore( though I struggle on, with less and less hours), and I am simply too tired.
I wander around in a groggy haze most of the time. I have trouble concentrating on even the little things like writing this down that should require almost no effort.
Applications of heat or cold, nor taking pain medication or suppliments such as glucosamine have seemed to have any effect on my symptoms.
I do not know what is wrong with me, but I do not have insurance, and the emergency rooms have told me that it sounds like a chronic illness and not a true emergency.
They asked me to stop coming anymore unless I have something they can treat, like a migraine.
Even then I suppose it did little good to go as they only offered drugs that don't work and worsen some of my conditions, that I eventually refused to take altogether.
They tell me that they are not equipped for the kind of tests I need. No doctor around here will accept me as a patient without insurance.
I don't want medication to mask the pain at the expense of being a vegetable any how...
I want a cure or even at the very least a proper diagnosis.
I am sad, and often found staring off into nothingness contemplating why I am like this. I'm not sure I am am truly depressed though. I have my son, and he is my greatest comfort.
So far his biological mother has only had the opportunity to have him for two months since our divorce--prior to, he was in my care and his mother and I were seperated for almost a year--her lifestyle, and the choices she makes often prevents her from living in a stable enough environment to allow her to have our son for her parenting time.
Though I hear she is starting to do better, and while I am happy I am also not so happy. It means the time she will ask to take my source of light for three long months is nearing.
I am too ashamed to let others around me know of my symptoms that the doctors at the emergency room have treated as though they are fictitious and make believe, or in fairness to a less extreme; non-life threatening. I am not a fraud. I don't want attention. I want help.
Help.
My symptoms might not be life threatening but they are surely, slowly ruining my life.
I have prayed for help, for relief, for something. I believe this is gods way of reminding me that he only helps those who help themselves.
This is my attempt.
I don't have any friends where I live as I did not grow up here, which is why as my only real means to the outside world (the internet) I am posting this here.
Does anyone know of a place near Northwest Arkansas I can get help?
Around the same time I developed a ringing sensation in both of my ears, though predominately my right, that has not went away but is at times lighter than others. It sounds almost like an audible electronic frequency, like the whir of an old radio or the tubes in an old tv warming up.
My sleep, public, and private lives has suffered from these symptoms greatly. I hurt too much to work in the health care profession anymore( though I struggle on, with less and less hours), and I am simply too tired.
I wander around in a groggy haze most of the time. I have trouble concentrating on even the little things like writing this down that should require almost no effort.
Applications of heat or cold, nor taking pain medication or suppliments such as glucosamine have seemed to have any effect on my symptoms.
I do not know what is wrong with me, but I do not have insurance, and the emergency rooms have told me that it sounds like a chronic illness and not a true emergency.
They asked me to stop coming anymore unless I have something they can treat, like a migraine.
Even then I suppose it did little good to go as they only offered drugs that don't work and worsen some of my conditions, that I eventually refused to take altogether.
They tell me that they are not equipped for the kind of tests I need. No doctor around here will accept me as a patient without insurance.
I don't want medication to mask the pain at the expense of being a vegetable any how...
I want a cure or even at the very least a proper diagnosis.
I am sad, and often found staring off into nothingness contemplating why I am like this. I'm not sure I am am truly depressed though. I have my son, and he is my greatest comfort.
So far his biological mother has only had the opportunity to have him for two months since our divorce--prior to, he was in my care and his mother and I were seperated for almost a year--her lifestyle, and the choices she makes often prevents her from living in a stable enough environment to allow her to have our son for her parenting time.
Though I hear she is starting to do better, and while I am happy I am also not so happy. It means the time she will ask to take my source of light for three long months is nearing.
I am too ashamed to let others around me know of my symptoms that the doctors at the emergency room have treated as though they are fictitious and make believe, or in fairness to a less extreme; non-life threatening. I am not a fraud. I don't want attention. I want help.
Help.
My symptoms might not be life threatening but they are surely, slowly ruining my life.
I have prayed for help, for relief, for something. I believe this is gods way of reminding me that he only helps those who help themselves.
This is my attempt.
I don't have any friends where I live as I did not grow up here, which is why as my only real means to the outside world (the internet) I am posting this here.
Does anyone know of a place near Northwest Arkansas I can get help?