Need to be in control, lack of guilt, daily headaches, talking to self, I'm quiet except around friends, I've started to randomly hate some of my friends, terrified of the dark, it takes me hours to sleep (literally), I bottle emotions, I forget small things, dead babies are funny, some times in dreams I kill or blackout, I recently did this thing where I took 2 of my friends and seperated my self from our group and watched the group slowly fall to prove power and they havent fallen so I'm trying to make it fall, and I'm incredibly apethetic.