im depressed. i was told it was cuz i dont have alot of seretonin.
my life sucks, and i know i can improve it if only i was more instressted in doing so.
i may eventually take antidepressants. but i cant just rely on chemicals or it will cause more problems and i will simply become addicted, and i think its unfair how the doctors cost 380 dollars per visit, greedy bastards.
so i need to know a certain type of food(s) that can help my body create testosterone and seretonin. and it has to be healthy, not some greasy fast-food shit with a whole bunch of sugar.
see i started taking an adhd med, and it helps me to concentrate. so i can do my homework, but i realized that even though i can focus enough to finish my work, dont have any willpower to do it.
also, ive been working out at the gym but whenever i leave i feel depressed and unsatisfied,
another thing is, when im at parties or even just talking to my friends in general, i cant be myself.
its not because i tire very easily it is because:
i feel bored, unhappy, uncaring, and very unsocial.
u would think that i would be playing video games all day but i dont cuz when i do it stresses me out, and after 3o mins i feel horrible playing them.
so instead, i do this. i spend hours everyday looking for ways to improve my life on this computer.
an example of my moodiness is me dancing: i was very good at dancing, and i loved to do it because i could make up any crazy dance. now i cannot make very many new ones, i often have to repeat old ones, i forget some of them, and when i do them, i do it very half-heartily because im just not in the mood for social at all.
i tried drinking caffeine such as dr. pepper, and mountain dew at the party, but because of my adhd, it slowed my brain down even more. lol oops.
it must be something im not eating.
is there certain foods that can create testosterone, seretonin, and anything else that will decrease my moodiness, and make me more interested in my work and play?
im 15 years old. do not tell me to pray to god, i dont like god, and dont tell me to go seek professional help because im already im therapy sessions, and its gay and everytime my therapist sits down, he get a freaking huge ass boner, and its nasty and i dont need two of them.
and please dont recommend antidepressants, if u havent read the top part, i may begin taking the pills, but they are very expensive and i have to try something else first.
and if your that fucking lazy and did not even bother reading the rest of my fucking title after "i am depressed..." then please share with me a type of food that will help my body create testosterone and seretonin and the other few things that i forgot i need.
(side note about my depression case)
my depression is mild: i cry alot, sometimes i think that if i kill myself my friends will feel bad, but when i die and if there is a such thing as god, then i will be a stupid mindless angel bowing kissing his feet, and i will probably get kicked back down to hell. and if there is no such a thing as god, then i will simply turn to a pile of shit and i dont want to.
my suicidal thoughts are very small: i will never, and have never cut myself, and i dont want to be on the press with a title over my dead body saying: "HEY THIS KID KILLED HIMSELF!!!
" with a picture of detectives and police men touching my body in weird places.
my life sucks, and i know i can improve it if only i was more instressted in doing so.
i may eventually take antidepressants. but i cant just rely on chemicals or it will cause more problems and i will simply become addicted, and i think its unfair how the doctors cost 380 dollars per visit, greedy bastards.
so i need to know a certain type of food(s) that can help my body create testosterone and seretonin. and it has to be healthy, not some greasy fast-food shit with a whole bunch of sugar.
see i started taking an adhd med, and it helps me to concentrate. so i can do my homework, but i realized that even though i can focus enough to finish my work, dont have any willpower to do it.
also, ive been working out at the gym but whenever i leave i feel depressed and unsatisfied,
another thing is, when im at parties or even just talking to my friends in general, i cant be myself.
its not because i tire very easily it is because:
i feel bored, unhappy, uncaring, and very unsocial.
u would think that i would be playing video games all day but i dont cuz when i do it stresses me out, and after 3o mins i feel horrible playing them.
so instead, i do this. i spend hours everyday looking for ways to improve my life on this computer.
an example of my moodiness is me dancing: i was very good at dancing, and i loved to do it because i could make up any crazy dance. now i cannot make very many new ones, i often have to repeat old ones, i forget some of them, and when i do them, i do it very half-heartily because im just not in the mood for social at all.
i tried drinking caffeine such as dr. pepper, and mountain dew at the party, but because of my adhd, it slowed my brain down even more. lol oops.
it must be something im not eating.
is there certain foods that can create testosterone, seretonin, and anything else that will decrease my moodiness, and make me more interested in my work and play?
im 15 years old. do not tell me to pray to god, i dont like god, and dont tell me to go seek professional help because im already im therapy sessions, and its gay and everytime my therapist sits down, he get a freaking huge ass boner, and its nasty and i dont need two of them.
and please dont recommend antidepressants, if u havent read the top part, i may begin taking the pills, but they are very expensive and i have to try something else first.
and if your that fucking lazy and did not even bother reading the rest of my fucking title after "i am depressed..." then please share with me a type of food that will help my body create testosterone and seretonin and the other few things that i forgot i need.
(side note about my depression case)
my depression is mild: i cry alot, sometimes i think that if i kill myself my friends will feel bad, but when i die and if there is a such thing as god, then i will be a stupid mindless angel bowing kissing his feet, and i will probably get kicked back down to hell. and if there is no such a thing as god, then i will simply turn to a pile of shit and i dont want to.
my suicidal thoughts are very small: i will never, and have never cut myself, and i dont want to be on the press with a title over my dead body saying: "HEY THIS KID KILLED HIMSELF!!!
" with a picture of detectives and police men touching my body in weird places.