So my problem is that I'm really scared of sex and the idea of being romantically involved with another human being. I've begun seeing this guy now and he's really into me, but I feel awful because I'm repulsed by him and males in general. I hate the idea of letting a man put his hands on me. It makes me want to really throw up. I'm 20 years old, a virgin and I literally cry sometimes out of fear of this. I can't let anything inside me, I don't want anyone to do that to me.
A bit about me, I've been sexually assaulted once. (It was just groping, but still scary) I was raised in a conservative Muslim family who refuses to speak about sex, so I can't go to them about it. My friends are just not the easiest to talk to about sex so I keep it to myself.
I don't know what it is. I'm attracted to good looking men, but the fear of what they'll do to me is overwhelming. I know this probably isn't normal. It feels like this feeling can never be reversed.
Thanks, any insight would be much appreciated.
It isnt the STIs that worry me, it's just the overall idea of a man putting his hands on me. I can't afford a therapist, I'm a student living with a family that doesn't believe in therapy. I'm very comfortable in my own body, it's not a self esteem issue. I just cant fathom letting a man do things to me.
A bit about me, I've been sexually assaulted once. (It was just groping, but still scary) I was raised in a conservative Muslim family who refuses to speak about sex, so I can't go to them about it. My friends are just not the easiest to talk to about sex so I keep it to myself.
I don't know what it is. I'm attracted to good looking men, but the fear of what they'll do to me is overwhelming. I know this probably isn't normal. It feels like this feeling can never be reversed.
Thanks, any insight would be much appreciated.
It isnt the STIs that worry me, it's just the overall idea of a man putting his hands on me. I can't afford a therapist, I'm a student living with a family that doesn't believe in therapy. I'm very comfortable in my own body, it's not a self esteem issue. I just cant fathom letting a man do things to me.