I'm about as emotionless as I ever could get.

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yagurlpuff

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I feel like recently I have just died. I am so emotionless and so apathetic that its ridiculous.

I was for a while feeling a lot..mostly being scared.

Now.. nothing. I am such an asshole, I am not in the least compassionate at all. I had all of my feelings go through a decay and now I try to see what I can do to make me happy, sad.... or anything.

I am not self-righteous, nor do I have any self-preservation. I don't feel invincible, but I just don't give a fuck about anything at all. I am not scared of anything at all anymore.

I can't remember if I posted a life sucks thread about this already.. but emotionally I can't relate to anyone and its fucking up my social life and any relationships I have with my family and friends. I wish I felt worse, but I can't even get myself to feel remorse over it.

My best friends are the ones keeping me from just pure apathy, and saying "fuck it" to everything, and just lying around not really doing anything.


Life doesn't suck. I am perfect for any job where they need to stick someone who doesn't give any regard to the circumstances and doesn't give a fuck about the consequences.

I'd probably do anything anyone told me to do right now, and nothing would phase me,
 
"I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel"

You know, I went through this, for a long time after my ex. Not sure what happened to you to make you put up a wall, but this too shall pass. Go out, and do things that require you to put yourself in positions you've never been in before. Like volunteering at a soup kitchen, or something else that can be emotionally rendering/rewarding. You could just be in a rut, redundancy has taken it's toll on you. So try new things. Go Skydiving, or something dangerous.

Hope this helped somewhat =)
 
Yeah. Pretty much.


and as for being put in a place that I am not usually in.. I have no social anxiety about anything. I don't care at all. I could be placed naked in new york city and I wouldn't care.
 
no no, that's not why I told you that LOL. New experiences open you up to new feelings, and hopefully in your case, new emotions. After a while something's going to pop, you're going to be doing something you haven't done before, and you're going to love it, or you're going to hate it so much that you're going to realize something else you love.

do you understand what I mean?
 
Yeah. Maybe open myself up a bit.. or at least go out and do something for someone else if I can't for myself.

Hm. I don't know though.. I have a disregard for just about anyone else's feelings or problems.

If I maybe tried to care for someone else it might help me grow up a bit. I'll see.

maybe being an asshole to everyone I can get the change to be one to is the cause of my deal.
 
:hug2:

I know exactly how you feel. I am practically unable to feel emotions anymore. I have not been happy in months, and I rarely get sad/mad/angry. I am always bored. I do not enjoy anything. I am just here. My psychologist said that I am practically 'unhuman'.

I don't care about anyone but myself. My sister is getting a divorce and might lose custody of one of her sons, and my mom might be pregnant, and I honestly don't care. I don't care about my friends either. I saw my best friend for the first time in weeks the other day and I couldn't have cared less.

I'm starting to ramble about my own problems in your thread so I'm going to shut up. Just know that you're not alone, Chad!

I also would like some advice on this.
 
;818828']Feel the hatred flow through you, young Skywalker. Come to the Dark Side.

There is a positive to this- if you don't learn to be an asshole, you'll be kicked around. Try and find some balance. People who go through life being nice to everyone get trampled.
 
I am only emotionally stuck on my friends, though muse. Its stange, the only weakness I literally have emotionally at all, is the same strength that wants me to wake up in the morning. Sometimes, just being with my friends is the only thing I could ever imagine doing..

I am not like clingy, lol.. but I care more about my friends than anyone else.. and if anything were to happen to them, or the friendship I have with them.. I would then be completely unhuman. I am literally on the hinge of being emotionless, but I have one problem and solution at the same time.
 
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