Yeah, sounds really familiar to me too. Oh, I know why! Because that's me! Except, I'm 16, I'm a girl, I'm straight, and I've lived in the U.S. my whole life. But otherwise, yeah.I can tell people all sorts of stuff, I have a fear of rejection, so I don't ask people out, (it's not really a desire to get laid, so the whole jerking off/masturbate part is non-applicable), uh...people don't han with me... or they didn't used to. Now my sister's friends hang out with me. Because they hang out with my sister at the same time... My best friend and I have grown apart, so she's not really my best friend anymore...though I was never her best friend. So I guess I have it a little worse than you. But I guess that just makes me more of a loser.
And don't worry, once you start speaking English better, the girls will be a lot more interested in you. Accents are tres sexy.