I'm a loner? No one relates to me? Am I really that weird?

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I'm 13, and yeah, just read the question. ;D I have one or two good friends. These friends don't really relate to me but are nice, considerate, fun, and not bouncing off the walls and talking constantly. They might relate to me in a few ways in terms on personality or what they like to do.

I guess I have a few acquaintances (I know that sounds weird, but what do you call someone who isn't a friend but someone you say hi in the halls to or ask about homework?)...Those few people are either nice to me or have one thing in common with me or both...Would you consider that a friend or acquaintance?

I don't know. I guess I have a hard time making friends, and I know everyone has their own definitions on what a friend is. To me, a friend is someone nice, understanding, can relate to you somehow and can make you feel better when you're gloomy. Also, a friend can appreciate you for who you are. if that's true, then I don't have many.

You could call me quiet, reserved, and not very sociable, but when something interests me I'll say something. I'm not arrogant and I tend to degrade myself, but I'm nice when someone approaches me and says something. I don't really start conversations though...I'm not outgoing at all so I'm not really comfortable around hyper people, and I'm intelligent, but I don't boast it. Usually I congratulate someone else when they get good marks, or, try to cheer them up when something upsets them.

As for what I like to do, not many people can also relate. Writing and playing cello are real passions for me. I can go on for ages but I won't. xP I like drawing and video games and watching National Geographic and Discovery Channel, and I have better things to worry about than fashion or makeup or boys or clothes. I just throw on a baggy t shirt and some jeans. I also have an intense love for classical music, and I do like some rock, like Coldplay, and some singers like John Mayer and Jack Johnson. And for hygiene, I don't like to be disgusting so don't worry I'm not a sweaty, gross dork or something.

I feel like I'm antisocial, cast out, a loner. I feel lonely and I hate it. From what I've said you can pretty much rule out that I'm pretty weird. The only time when I'm really random and laugh a lot and truly happy is when I'm with my one, good friend and she's in a different school, and we never hand out so much because we can't thing of anything to do.

Does anyone feel this way? How did you deal with it?
Can anyone relate to me?

Sorry for the long question!
(It also proves I have so much I want to say, but I can't say it, because no one is willing to hear...)
 
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