I am 23 and dont really have any friends, well i have about 3 or 4, who text me but as for meeting up face to face and actually doing something like shopping, then no they dont do that. Also in regards to those 4 friends, one of them is a guy who hardly gets in touch with me and the other two girls are not very outgoing and only go out during the day (they wont do grown up stuff and go to a bar/night club or even go out anywhere in the evening).
I have even tried to make new friends off the internet (websites like citysocialising) and met a girl and a guy, but they never get in touch. Its always me having to make the arrangements, getting touch first which i am getting sick off.
Because of this situation, i have joined a social group but because im on a low salary ( i eanr less than £200 a week- shit i know) its come with a problem in terms of travelling, taxi fares and everything else. Also, there seems to be clicks within the group and im finding it hard to make a breakthrough and talk to some of the people there.
I work part time and earn less than £200 a week. I have an English degree, applied for countless jobs and have so far got no where. I dont want to be a teacher, yet its like the only job i can do with an an English degree. I have really good skills and im very intelligent, but no one seems to care. I cant drive, i have taken no lessons but desperately want to if i had the money which is where my frustration is coming from. Everyone i speak to has either had driving lessons, got their provisional licence or is actually driving a car apart from me. I feel so backwards in life, making zero progress.
I just dont feel normal like a normal 23 year old but very abnormal, like a social oddity and failure. I am skinny (thats debatable but i cant seem to gain weight because i worry a lot, i dont feel content with life)
I am Catholic, go to church every saturday/sunday and i try to pray about all of this, i offer the whole lot up to God and i pray to him for help of some kind, i tell him that i feel very lonely and depressed. My faith is like the only thing i have left and even then, i find it so hard to pray, i feel that sometimes i am just talking to the wall, the ceilings and the curtains when i pray in my bedroom.
I just feel that im not getting enough out of life, im not where i should be, not making the progress that i should be making. I hardly go on facebook, but there are some people who go on it like 69 times a day changing their statuses and pictures. They all look like they are having the time of their lives with all their pictures. They look like they have fabulous social lives and looking at them makes me feel crap. I do find some people fake though in facebook and my mom says to me "are you on that bloody fakebook again". She thinks its a pile of poo, and in some ways i have to agree.
I never went away to uni, preferring instead to go to a local university.
When i was at school i was a bit of a quiet shy individual, not having a lot of confidence. I would say im more confident now than when i was younger, but even now im still not as confident and loud as some girls. When i was at school, i wouldnt even get on a bus, i dont think i was pushed by my mom or my nan (who lived with us for many years because my dad walked out on me when i was 2 years old) to get on a bus and travel for miles to school.
So i feel that my childhood has caused problems in terms of confidence which has had a knock on effect on the way i am today. They say you develop your personality from childhood. I cant blame mo mom or my nan but i feel they did mollycoddle me too much as a young kid.
Im frightened that i will remaim single forever and will never get married and walk down the aisle or have any kids.
It is a real genuine fear, it may sound ridiculous but its not ridiculous to me. Sometimes im paranoid that my mom has written me off and that ive failed her in life.
I have even tried to make new friends off the internet (websites like citysocialising) and met a girl and a guy, but they never get in touch. Its always me having to make the arrangements, getting touch first which i am getting sick off.
Because of this situation, i have joined a social group but because im on a low salary ( i eanr less than £200 a week- shit i know) its come with a problem in terms of travelling, taxi fares and everything else. Also, there seems to be clicks within the group and im finding it hard to make a breakthrough and talk to some of the people there.
I work part time and earn less than £200 a week. I have an English degree, applied for countless jobs and have so far got no where. I dont want to be a teacher, yet its like the only job i can do with an an English degree. I have really good skills and im very intelligent, but no one seems to care. I cant drive, i have taken no lessons but desperately want to if i had the money which is where my frustration is coming from. Everyone i speak to has either had driving lessons, got their provisional licence or is actually driving a car apart from me. I feel so backwards in life, making zero progress.
I just dont feel normal like a normal 23 year old but very abnormal, like a social oddity and failure. I am skinny (thats debatable but i cant seem to gain weight because i worry a lot, i dont feel content with life)
I am Catholic, go to church every saturday/sunday and i try to pray about all of this, i offer the whole lot up to God and i pray to him for help of some kind, i tell him that i feel very lonely and depressed. My faith is like the only thing i have left and even then, i find it so hard to pray, i feel that sometimes i am just talking to the wall, the ceilings and the curtains when i pray in my bedroom.
I just feel that im not getting enough out of life, im not where i should be, not making the progress that i should be making. I hardly go on facebook, but there are some people who go on it like 69 times a day changing their statuses and pictures. They all look like they are having the time of their lives with all their pictures. They look like they have fabulous social lives and looking at them makes me feel crap. I do find some people fake though in facebook and my mom says to me "are you on that bloody fakebook again". She thinks its a pile of poo, and in some ways i have to agree.
I never went away to uni, preferring instead to go to a local university.
When i was at school i was a bit of a quiet shy individual, not having a lot of confidence. I would say im more confident now than when i was younger, but even now im still not as confident and loud as some girls. When i was at school, i wouldnt even get on a bus, i dont think i was pushed by my mom or my nan (who lived with us for many years because my dad walked out on me when i was 2 years old) to get on a bus and travel for miles to school.
So i feel that my childhood has caused problems in terms of confidence which has had a knock on effect on the way i am today. They say you develop your personality from childhood. I cant blame mo mom or my nan but i feel they did mollycoddle me too much as a young kid.
Im frightened that i will remaim single forever and will never get married and walk down the aisle or have any kids.
It is a real genuine fear, it may sound ridiculous but its not ridiculous to me. Sometimes im paranoid that my mom has written me off and that ive failed her in life.