drugs, will it ever go away? I'm 21, and diagnosed with major depression, social anxiety disorder, and a few personality disorders. I have an addictive personality, both in relationships and in general. I cut (though not often anymore because it upsets my fiance), drink way too much unless somebody takes it away from me, and now I've found my newest vice. Drugs. And what makes it worse is that I often have a lot of suicidal thoughts, so me + drugs probably = overdose at some point or other. But I don't know how to stop wanting them.
I had absolutely no desire to try anything at all until I took 2 percocets heading to my gyno appointment one day because I was extremely anxious about it. And, unfortunately, I liked it a little too much. Ever since, I've been taking 2 of them once a week until I ran out. And now that I ran out, I'm thinking of going behind my fiance's back and buying Coricidin to help me get high. He sort of made the mistake of telling me too much information about how I can get high off Dextromethorphan (not his fault though, he didn't know my intentions until he realized I wasn't letting the subject go). He specifically told me not to even think about trying this, but I can't help it. I want that feeling of an alternate reality again because I hate my reality. Plus, now that I tried getting high and liked it, I don't think the desire will ever go away, will it?
I had absolutely no desire to try anything at all until I took 2 percocets heading to my gyno appointment one day because I was extremely anxious about it. And, unfortunately, I liked it a little too much. Ever since, I've been taking 2 of them once a week until I ran out. And now that I ran out, I'm thinking of going behind my fiance's back and buying Coricidin to help me get high. He sort of made the mistake of telling me too much information about how I can get high off Dextromethorphan (not his fault though, he didn't know my intentions until he realized I wasn't letting the subject go). He specifically told me not to even think about trying this, but I can't help it. I want that feeling of an alternate reality again because I hate my reality. Plus, now that I tried getting high and liked it, I don't think the desire will ever go away, will it?