I wish I was dead.

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Kayy♫

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Okay I am 16 and life sucks. As you may have read I wrote another thread on cutting. Which I do,do. Life sucks so fucking ass bad. My first dad left and doesnt want anything to fucking do wiht me. and my second dad just left too. he is one hell of a fucking jackass. My mom has a muscle diesese and he told her that every fucking time she slurrs her words he wonders why the fuck did i marry you. how low can you get. it also doesnt help that i cant even keep a guy. Every guy that i have gone out with either is only going out wiht me cause of my looks or to have sex. I have a 2 year old child. She is gorgeous and she is now living with me. before she was with her gay ass dad. Now he lost his job and dont got money for her so i get her. i used to have to send him atleast $400 a week. I was put on the streets to get that money too. My mom totally hates me and so does everyone in my family. My grades are dropping. i mean i failed once again. agh life just sucks so bad!! :sword:
 
I feel for you. You gotta get some help and this is not the place to do that. Seriously, wether you know it or not; your life is in your hands. We can't control everything, but we can generally mould the outcome of our lives. Another thing is your 2 yr old child. You owe it to that child to get some help and start to mend both of your lives. But you have to start with yourself before she can even stand a chance. As far as your guy problems, forget about guys for now. Focus on the thing that matters the most, insuring that you and your child can start to lead a normal happy life.

Start by making a list of your problems and put them into categories like Family, Financial, substance abuse (if it exists). Then think about how the problems link together. (ie. your ex doesn't send you money-> You had to work the street to get it-> That probably gives you other self esteem issues.) Try to use this information to empower you to change these events. Fix one problem at a time. Start by fixing Root issues, the ones that other problems grow out of.

Once you have all your issues lined up and it seems clear what you're dealing with use the web and other resources to find Local and state govornment or non proffit organizations, that are geared to help you. These resources can range from financial help and counceling to mental health counceling.

The important thin is to remember that You are in control of your own life.
 
take some attitude... say a couple of F.U. to anyone you feel it bothers you and live your life your way!.. oh you're 16.. i guess that's tougher but if you've got the nerves and guts to do it.. Do it.. it can't be worse i think.. cause as you describe this situation this is my opinion
 
When you have a child, you do not have the right to commit suicide. You need help, and badly. Talk to a school counselor, or you state social workers. call them yourselves, this is a bad situation that can only get worse from here unless YOU make it better.

You created a life, a living, breathing person with a soul and blood. That is not easily tossed aside. You have more going for you than you know.

I had my first child at 17, I know way older than 13, but still young. It is very hard to live your life at that age without a support system, so seek help wherever you can.

I sincerely hope that God smiles upon you and your child, and that your lives become more than you believe they are.

You know, this post almost made me cry. Please, seek out help for your families sake.
 
God..Im gehtin all girly too..that is fuckin depressing..sounds like max and d'sgirl have good advise for you.For fucks sake,dont give in to lifes ups and downs.It doesnt matter who you are life will suck now and then.
you've got so much ahead of you.your life, your CHILDS!that kid knows nothing but to be born. Its up to you to show her that life doesnt suck.
It sounds like she has you and nobody else.You need to keep looking up.
for her sake and for yours. Life gehts worse,(look at mr.newbie)
it WILL geht better. I really wish i could do more to help. i know how you feel.
Just one thought for now.Look forward to growing old with you child..
 
I hate to say it because I can't stand Opra or her stupid show, but she's an exelent example of turning your life around. Here she is one of the nations most wealthy and influential women, and she came from a life not much different than yours.
When she was young she was treated like an outcast in her family, and molested by five different family members in the span of five years. Her life had all the makings of a failure. She took it upon herself to turn it around.
This is not to say that you'll end up with a multimillion dollar bank account. But, Chances are very likely that if you get help now you can end up living in a nice house, get a decent job, perhaps find someone that will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. And all because you decided to put your foot down and say "Enough!"
 
Your life is no longer your own, you have given it to your child. Choose to dedicate your life to your child, and you will be rewarded with a wonderful human being with whom you will have a very positive relationship. Fight this occurence, and you will be miserable. the choice is yours. And help never hurts, and is always closer than you think.
 
u know, I noticed how many ppl here have come to this site with problems, myself included, but I also noticed that we've all had a nak for giving wonderful advice to others with their problems...I've found this site very stress relieving and helpful to find ways to relate to others here and help figure out each others problems

max power and dustinzgirl in the first few replies pretty said everything I was thinking at the moment I read the thread so I probably shouldn't repeat it...but as someone who is divorced and has her kid and she is a co-employee she told me the first thing is to get the father to start paying child support..she said alot of things that helped her stay on track, that and keep working, live nicely as u can, like where u live, what house, anything....my advice is to (well I don't know which way exactly) but for sure don't let ur child get all caught up with what's going on...the truth can set u free, but it can make alot of ppl angry or happy...play ur cards wisely, no wait, choose the right directions, jee I'm bad with metaphors, just make sure u decide what's best for u and ur child and let NO ONE decide for u, ask questions of course, but u make the final decisions...cause it's gotta be hard for a 16 year old with a child out there, just hang in
 
thanx and ur welcome, I'm glad I could be of assistance

I know things happen and I don't blame fate or anything, it just does...but I do know that there's always some way around it and to find light on the other side......My laptop got screwed and someone broke into my truck recently and I'm suppose to go down south in a week, but luckly I found a way around it, $400 later and some time tearing my laptop apart fixing it, I've made everything perfectly back the way it should be, actually better...I'm tinting my windows now...if I've learned one thing it's not to let people see what u've got hidden in ur vehicle or even inside u, cause once they know they'll find anyway to get to u and destroy u...my way is to find somehow to block them from messing with me, if that fails, call the cops-and man I'm paranoid of the cops, but Ive' never done anything wrong, they just freak me out
 
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