I think I already damaged my liver and will need a liver transplant soon or I wont...

[Sara]

...live past 5 years? the reason I think like this was because I was a heavy on and off binger drinker for a few years. Once I drank a 750 ml bottle of smirnoff cocktails tuscan lemonade (15% alcohol by volume) and then had a 1 liter of sangria which was 1.75 liter of alcohol in one night (however the sangria was probably harmless since there's barely any alcohol in that kind of drink) it only had 6% alcohol which I couldn't even taste the alcohol when I drank it since the alcohol content was so low and when I drank it it seemed no different to me than like having a non-alcoholic drink since there was so little in there. On frequent weekends I would down a pint of vodka in one night and in a short time period example, an hour and a half I had 1 shot and then waited 10 minutes to take the next shot each time I had a shot I had a 10 minute break is 10 minutes enough to wait after having one shot? but one time I asked my boyfriend to go get a pint of vodka for me in the store and he returned with a 2 pint instead and said they were out of the 1 pint sizes. So I slammed the 2 pint bottle of vodka into me in about an hour no more this time I was only taking 5 minute breaks in between one shot. I also used to consume a 1.5 liter bottle of wine in a short time period. My grandfather who is an alcoholic himself told me that a person's liver cannot handle 1.5 liters of wine and if I keep doing this I will end up with liver failure, he already says I could end up with liver failure soon because my liver will back fire on me and suddenly fail because of all of the alcohol abuse I did to it all those months and I am so scared. I wouldn't be able to afford a liver transplant and my insurance is Medicaid and that's government insurance so I do not think a government insurance will cover a liver transplant. My mother told me my doctor said my liver panels were bad and that if I do not give up on alcohol completely, I will die in 5 years, however my grandfather also spoke to the same doctor and said the doctor didn't say this but my mother said she did say this I do not know who to believe. Could I really have damaged my liver bad enough to need a transplant soon? I do not think so since I haven't been drinking heavily for 10 years just a few years and it was only on and off binge drinking, there were several days a week when I only had 1 or 2 beers a day or nothing at all. Quitting alcohol for me for good meaning not drinking at all is very hard for me since I always see my grandfather at the table with a beer and he has after the other and so on and it makes me want to drink too and my mother also has wine on weekends and my grandmother too sometimes drinks I would feel left out this is the reason I cannot go dry. My grandfather and possibly my mother drank all these years (my grandfather heavily) I do not know about my mother but I can recall on one occassion where my mother was laying drunk in bed and then she couldn't hold in whatever she had to drink so she just threw up all over herself. As I recall she had too much wine to drink on that day. My grandfather never developed any serious problems does that mean I can go on drinking without ever needing a liver transplant?